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biyu

aww thanks i THOUGHT they did but well i think i need to send you a log fer you to better understand he seems to think ive changed AND im still the same yea back to amnother reason he EARNED the wholr 455h013 thing soo yea i think even tho i WAS stubbourn (i can agree to seem calmer ok BOT i want them atleast aware of my gifts of the facty i feel stuff i wanna be able to know if i feel somethion i can talk about it an yea i think it fair i mean i DONT wanna suppress myself i kinda do at school while im in class tho i may talk bout it wityh those online i wont with the class unless another brings it up)

i do admit i should do more for that but it seems in how he was "asking" --demanding morelike-- that would prolly be better fer now i mean we are talkin bout the guy i wel;l fell for in highschool evenm then i was honest bout ohh like everythin

Star Skye

biyu, i hear you loud and clear on the friends and changing and not being called to join occasions and

like that. but i have found it really isnt worth it sometimes. if they cant accept you as you are, then

them. the problem with you is in their heads, and it has NOTHING to do with the actual you. so let it go and let them have their fits and prejudices while we party it up!

we love you biyu and you get me more than most ppl for which i am sincerely thankful for.

Star Skye

also bi, this thing about the gifts can really freak ppl out as well as most believe it is sci-fi or fantasy. take it slow. you know your truth and there is no need to impose it on others if they want to be blind. my best friend and i recently broke up b/c one of the things she hated was that i would know when something was up with her before she told me and when she didnt want me to know. i cant explain that of course she wants me to know, b/c her soul is reaching out to mine, screaming. so i cut off the link, and then a whole bunch of things developed, and we ended up not being friends anymore. and bi, i had no attachments, i didnt NEED her for anything. she was someone i simply chose to share my life with and then we both made the decision to not do that anymore, and that was fine.

if they can't appreciate you or see the gifts in the right context, bi, then really, they are not someone you can be your most divine self with. i have found that i don;t want or need someone to understand, just accept. to trust me with what i am, and trust them. and that is ok. it is all a choice bi, i wonderful chosen experience, and it is ok. it always is.

so keep your chin up, and keep sharing what you want to. i have found that i am a certain part of me with some ppl, and another with others. don;t expect every situation to demand the same of you. flow with the tide. and LOVE yourself, bi, enough to stand in your truth and keep your peace.

much love and balance, star.

biyu

you realise few could prolly get that same reaction outta nme as what you jus said did? an the 3 that youve met they all know of my gifgts theres another me an him would well 2 outhers in this me an him would be at lunch he would have a number fer me to guess an the 3rd would try to throw me off well i was usially right we got bored it came up was a way to test was fun i didnt wanna prove anything actually ok time fer inityals k was sendin s was tryin ta toss me off i know atleast onvce k said seemed like something i wasnt sayin i couldnt think of it i told him that i cant think of what itd be or that an yea it was k who i was hanging with when the name kitrina popped into my head i thought was girl an related to him but later i fergot all about it an WHAM! it happened soo yea you know j t an n an it was t to kinda start that i asked j he said that he didnt know an reallyu i guess i jus kinda figure yea theryve met n has showed intrest in havin me there when we were in highschool an JUST cause theres literally a 2% chance of me beein able to go dos that make it right to not even bother asking me? if yall are gonna meet fine if yall dont want me there FINE but then DIONT ESSIENTALLY RUB IT IN MY

FACE (i only look mad really im gettin closer to cryion agin)

biyu

an i love yall too yall like literally ARE my sanity at times i just wish they could understand they could make SOME effort i mean i know there will be the outcasts but really a group OF outcasts? are outcasts really

needed THERE too?

oh an s well i was in foods with him i taught him a few things about cookin we did a LOT of baking an desserts that was fun i think they ALL know how good my cooking is an i think they woyuld know ask me to bring somethin chances are i will an itill be good too i know no jello or oranges fer j think n muight hasve an allergy need ta figure everyone elses soo yea an once i knew THAT would factor too an id prolly do healthyier too

but hey TYHEY DONT SEEM TO CARE soo why the

should i???

biyu

ok screwv this!! the log where it all started msn log soo date time from to annoyin i KJNOW but yall will get usted ta it IF you decide to read it

12/27/2008 10:38:38 PM marie Tony hey
12/27/2008 10:39:25 PM Tony marie hello
12/27/2008 10:42:37 PM marie Tony whats up?
12/27/2008 10:43:06 PM Tony marie stuff.... nothing much
12/27/2008 10:43:18 PM marie Tony whatcha hidin?
12/27/2008 10:43:34 PM Tony marie nothing, why?
12/27/2008 10:43:59 PM Tony marie I'm on he computer talking to people
12/27/2008 10:44:23 PM Tony marie I mean, I went to a party earlier, but that's it
12/27/2008 10:45:19 PM marie Tony oh fun
12/27/2008 10:45:20 PM Tony marie everyone was there! including nicole and zaak
12/27/2008 10:45:51 PM marie Tony an not me huh?
12/27/2008 10:46:02 PM marie Tony i BNEVER get the invites huh?
12/27/2008 10:46:33 PM Tony marie it was at sean's house and steph was there, so if you would have been there you and steph would have killed each other.... plus riece doesn't like you....
12/27/2008 10:47:04 PM marie Tony rece can deal an why would you think weed kill eachouther?
12/27/2008 10:47:24 PM Tony marie if not each other, then steph would have killed you
12/27/2008 10:47:27 PM marie Tony i mighghta strangled her from hugs but outherwise prolly not
12/27/2008 10:47:33 PM marie Tony why?
12/27/2008 10:50:19 PM Tony marie she hates you.... with a passion..... people change..... I've even changed... YOU'VE even changed..... but she just doesn't like anything about you..... and fyi... you aren't even a little bit country unless you grew up there...... not practically, but DID grow up there..... listening to the music doesn't make you country
12/27/2008 10:51:01 PM Tony marie you are a city girl... that's it
12/27/2008 10:51:05 PM marie Tony uhh you realise i listen to christain music more now
12/27/2008 10:54:46 PM marie Tony ?
12/27/2008 10:54:50 PM Tony marie well... then stop talking with that southern drawl........ it's annoying..... there are a few things that NOBODY apreciates.....like that, and the laughing REALLY loud.... and well.... doing whatever you want without even thinking about what other people think.... you may have gotten rid of your emotions, but I didn't, and my CHOICE is to not to, so deak with the fact that your friends are embarassed by the stuff you do and fix it!!!
12/27/2008 10:55:20 PM Tony marie deal*
12/27/2008 10:55:46 PM Tony marie why are you so close minded?!
12/27/2008 10:55:46 PM marie Tony youre stuck in the past
12/27/2008 10:56:08 PM marie Tony you still look at who i was not who i am
12/27/2008 10:58:11 PM Tony marie prove to me, that you can be presentable and MAYBE I will convince everyone that you can come to our get togethers... because we only allow people that everyone likes.... I got everyone to like steph... now are you going to do this for me, so I can convince everyone that you are part of the group?
12/27/2008 10:58:36 PM marie Tony you know all that posativity you feel in me? think one withought emotions could REALLY feel muchless live that?
12/27/2008 10:59:04 PM Tony marie you have no embarassment?
12/27/2008 10:59:18 PM Tony marie !?*
12/27/2008 10:59:23 PM marie Tony if they need convincing then maby i shoulddnt be part of them
12/27/2008 10:59:52 PM Tony marie fine then!
12/27/2008 11:00:11 PM marie Tony youre right i dpont get embarassed you know why? i feel its meaningless an well useless what good dos it really do?
12/27/2008 11:00:49 PM Tony marie other people do though!!!! feel sypathy for them!!! not everyone can get rid of it!!!!
12/27/2008 11:00:49 PM marie Tony are you jus gonna stop beein my friend now cause i choose to be stubbpourn on something?
12/27/2008 11:01:20 PM Tony marie no I'm not, but everyone else is another story
12/27/2008 11:01:55 PM marie Tony uhh ive feelt actual physical pain so bad i had to lock up my knee an anckle just to walk they feel no sympathy for the physical pain ive felt
12/27/2008 11:03:18 PM Tony marie why!!! why can't you just behave!!! why are you so stubborn!!!
12/27/2008 11:03:26 PM marie Tony ill bet they really know little bout physical forms of empathy yet im expected to thionk about outhers who arent required to think of me what sence dos that make?
12/27/2008 11:03:43 PM marie Tony im tryint to prove a point
12/27/2008 11:04:20 PM Tony marie why!!! nobody is going to get it!!
12/27/2008 11:04:44 PM marie Tony will they even try?
12/27/2008 11:05:14 PM Tony marie no!!!
12/27/2008 11:05:41 PM Tony marie they think that this is all crazy!! don't force things upon people!!
12/27/2008 11:06:20 PM Tony marie oh

!!!
12/27/2008 11:06:33 PM Tony marie b ,?K: >r97t8pp
12/27/2008 11:06:33 PM Tony marie []\
12/27/2008 11:06:36 PM Tony marie ]
12/27/2008 11:06:39 PM marie Tony really youre expecting more of me then you do them you seem to think its fair to bash me when there ok as they are they fer the most part know im gifted they know im open about it an really i think its if youre gonna expect stuff pof me then they can AT LEAST be aware of things of me an if i feel something then ok
12/27/2008 11:07:21 PM Tony marie ok I fixed it
12/27/2008 11:07:45 PM marie Tony im NOT forcing them i just want them aware heack maby i could try somethin with one of my gifts turn the stars an orbss an maby heal them
12/27/2008 11:07:57 PM marie Tony fixed WHAT?
12/27/2008 11:08:24 PM Tony marie feel funny \_/
12/27/2008 11:08:39 PM marie Tony huh?
12/27/2008 11:08:55 PM Tony marie feeling.... tired...
12/27/2008 11:09:15 PM marie Tony why? too much diiscussion?
12/27/2008 11:09:31 PM marie Tony too much stoubbourn freak fer ya?
12/27/2008 11:09:31 PM Tony marie no you.... I feel wide awake now....
12/27/2008 11:09:42 PM marie Tony what?
12/27/2008 11:10:12 PM Tony marie thanks for the energy! god you have a lot....
12/27/2008 11:10:24 PM marie Tony what did you do?
12/27/2008 11:10:44 PM Tony marie I just drained a bit of your energy... you were getting on my nervews
12/27/2008 11:10:54 PM marie Tony why was that?
12/27/2008 11:11:08 PM Tony marie because I was getting tired
12/27/2008 11:11:12 PM marie Tony an yea i know ive alot of energy comes with beein me
12/27/2008 11:11:50 PM Tony marie I was GOING to suck you dry.... but I would have to make direct contact for that.....
12/27/2008 11:12:17 PM Tony marie .....
12/27/2008 11:12:17 PM marie Tony why siuck me dry?
12/27/2008 11:12:31 PM Tony marie .......
12/27/2008 11:12:53 PM marie Tony why even leech in the first place? i mean i can understand a wake-up but outherwise whjy?
12/27/2008 11:13:16 PM Tony marie because I can... why else?
12/27/2008 11:13:35 PM marie Tony so?
12/27/2008 11:14:04 PM marie Tony i could send out a star sole intent ti kill you i COULD dfos that make it right?
12/27/2008 11:14:54 PM Tony marie do it.... I'm more powerful than you anyway......
12/27/2008 11:15:09 PM marie Tony you seem to know how much energy i have soo you must have some understanding what im capable of
12/27/2008 11:15:17 PM marie Tony whys that?
12/27/2008 11:15:30 PM Tony marie a lot.... but not as much as me
12/27/2008 11:15:33 PM marie Tony why do you need to be more powerfull?
12/27/2008 11:16:47 PM Tony marie to take charge, why else.... the rightful throne in this world..... I have been ploting for years..... I could care less of this human race.... they are all idiots based on "apearance" anyway
12/27/2008 11:17:09 PM Tony marie hehehe
12/27/2008 11:17:36 PM marie Tony did you choose to go back to the negativity?
12/27/2008 11:17:39 PM marie Shino why?
12/27/2008 11:18:56 PM Shino marie why? WHY! because now that I have unlocked myself with positive energy, I now I can........
12/27/2008 11:19:25 PM marie Shino there was a reason it was what was needed
12/27/2008 11:19:26 PM Shino marie ok.... that was weird..... I turned back to negative and then back to positive
12/27/2008 11:20:00 PM marie Shino uhh need i say it may seem like a battle fer awhile?
12/27/2008 11:20:00 PM Shino marie that was really weird
12/27/2008 11:20:11 PM marie Shino uhh name look
12/27/2008 11:20:20 PM Shino marie NOW YOU TELL ME!!!!!!!
12/27/2008 11:20:26 PM Shino marie I know I know!!!!
12/27/2008 11:20:37 PM Shino marie I said it!!!
12/27/2008 11:21:14 PM Shino marie but I just fluctuated between demon and angel!! tell me what's going on!!!!!1
12/27/2008 11:21:59 PM Tony marie that was me.... dark me.... not some demon.... but me.....
12/27/2008 11:22:47 PM Tony marie I just looked at my cat and BAM back to positive
12/27/2008 11:22:53 PM marie Tony youre shadow is surfacing for healing huh?
12/27/2008 11:23:18 PM marie Tony it needs to heal huh? help it to
12/27/2008 11:24:22 PM Tony marie I think that if you try to do something with someone, it will have no effect.... because they unconciously but up a shield.....
12/27/2008 11:24:44 PM Tony marie if your going to try something on me... don't give me warning first
12/27/2008 11:25:12 PM marie Tony uhh you would be giving youreself the warning
12/27/2008 11:26:17 PM Tony marie no I wouldn't! some choices are made i the unconsious mind, and those I have no control over.... so please just do it....
12/27/2008 11:27:15 PM Tony marie I've gotta go
12/27/2008 11:27:25 PM marie Tony aww

youll notice im intentionally beein stubbourn i know it i can do that i was intentionally dooin it i AM stoubbourn at times
--1 persons name was changed as you prolly know him by that anywho

biyu

great MORE

ugh the one on inmdigo that iggyied me fer posting logs well i went there san the bitch was there soo i wantedf her to understand what i was thinkin why i did that didnt reply to me ONCE of it an i got irked then some still tryied semi-calmly turns out the bitch ignored me i asked zaakie to go inthere an try to getr her to listen to me well im thinmkin that gem needs to get shatytered soo yea

i was talkin to some

yesterday i think? meh i posted logs on the main of indigo then they tryied claiming i had altered the logs when i didnt it was all how old are you

the ass DIDNT once respond to my what or why dios it matter soo yea (oh started ass askinj me asl) well gem put me on ignore fer that today i try to explain the reasoning not once was i addressed fer what i said of it just put on iggy it seems i asked a few tinmes i made an EFFORT to explain why i did what i did still gem didnt seem to care soo yea

it SEEMS like i was still judged fer having posted the loh and i was trying to explain WHY the

it was that i did that i tryied i really did ill admit i maty not have used the best methods i still tryied still made an effort an well there were quite a few tinmes within these last few months i coulda EASILY judged MANY based on a single thing judged them as unkind unwantyed as negative for some reason or another but i choose not to i often had to make the ciontious choice i guess gem aint where i am but i guess i thiought trying to explain the reasoning would help her underrstand guess that was too much to expect huh?

Star Skye

biyu, don't go places that might get your ire up. chillax, sit back, relax. go places, do things that you love and forget about trying to help ppl that don;t want to be helped or that don't want to listen and understand. just let it go, biyu. the more you want, the less you allow yourself to have. right now, when it is the end of the year, and a new one is beginning, is a time to reflect and see what's up with one's self and emotions. it is not a time to be outward, but inward. maybe that is why you are getting so many negative reactions from the ppl around you. they are telling you "what are you doing out here?! you should be by yourself for now to figure your stuff out. so i am going to be a bitch or an ass so you stop trying to be outside and go within for your answers." the ppl we don;t like and what we don;t like about them are often our greatest teachers, remember that bi. and let it all go. stop wanting for ppl to understand when they don;t want or when they aren't ready to. or you'll drive yourself crazy.

i love you girl. byes. much love and balance.

biyu

aww thanks much starry tho the funny part if you wanna see it that way is i truly try everything i can to be as honest as i can you know that an i think its been shown here acouple times i cant say im 100% honest 100% of the time but i try to be even over the 50 marks on both an as is human nature it seems at times to lie and decieve to show youre better or more then you are i try to see that atleast within myself whever i can i mean part on indigo was switching my perspective an it was figured to be me i didnt do more then switch so it looked like i was a friend i didnt change from my "normal" accent --watch out southern could indicate fiery mood LOL-- an i didnt change

bout how i change if i WANTED to really pull it off i coulda done more (oh i can seem skizo it seems few really know much my friends or LOL those above mentioned know bout that i dont know why thats so easy i dont think i use it that often to MOST they should need an effort soo yea another jus "is" thing i guess)

dont mind more then yall wanna kinda thinkin outloud think gemini in me showing thru

biyu

a gripe for the gripe thread? LOL

well as a few of yall prolly know itunes hasnt been workin fer me fer awhile an i know that last time i was led to hp an microshaft didnt want a SINGLE thing to do with helpingg me--got pissed an hung up on them 2x threw my cell too sadly didnt break it but meh

soo sence i have the itunes thing an my cddriive has needed me to use cmd to do

with it soo yea i know im naturally more a geek then some people --like my uncle canty copy-paste or multiselect withought help both things i think you shoyuld learn in computers 100 even before 101 stuff but meh thats just me-- soo sence ive been in 1 semester of tech suppourt at matc i kinda expect these tech suppourt people to KNOW something time an time agin they prove they know less then me

marie zymbotica : 2 issues 1 itunes requires a re-boot comppy has been re-booted lasttime i had an issue with it it came to contact hp an 2 gui sais unburned unformated disk in drive cmd sais theres stuff there i wanna know why
[An agent will be with you shortly.]
[You are now chatting with Abdullah .]
Abdullah : Hello Marie.Abdullah : Welcome to HP Total Care.
marie zymbotica : hey
Abdullah : How are you doing?
marie zymbotica : well i CANT listen to my fave st6ation cause of itunes an its been issues an issues with this compouter it seems
marie zymbotica : plus i thought i came fer tech suppourt if i wanna chat any of my like 10+imming accounts can porovide
Abdullah : I regret the inconvience caused.
marie zymbotica : really?
Abdullah : I understand that the Audio is not comming after installing the iTunes. Am I correct?
marie zymbotica : well think you could help? i think ive proven im semi-geeky
marie zymbotica : on the itunes you ARE making

up
marie zymbotica : i had itunes working in here a long while ago this computer installed vista sp1 that

with my look i had to uninstall sp1 sence then itunes has been saying the computer needs to be re-booted its been re-bootyed ATLEAST a dozen times sence that started
marie zymbotica : ive tryioed iuninstalling and re-installing itunes it wouldnt uninstall NEEDED to re-boot
Abdullah : Thank you for providing me the additional information.
Abdullah : May I know the whether the iTunes which is installed in the Notebook is latest or oldest one.
Abdullah : Because the older version of iTunes has issues with Windows Vista.
marie zymbotica : it SHOULD be the newest i dfid get from the site an install that but whatever was there before didnt uninstall soo could be components of both
marie zymbotica : the itunes is even set to auto-update
Abdullah : Alright.
marie zymbotica : any thoughtas? or jus re-format the computer?marie zymbotica : an if youre gonna giveup on the itunes then i wanna know boiut the cddrive
Abdullah : Could I place you on hold for about 2-3 minutes while I check the information for you?
marie zymbotica : whynot?
Abdullah : Thank you.
marie zymbotica : swell im listenin to good music an oh lookie thru my computers speakkers firefox AND opera do audio on youtube an the like jus fine soo im pretty shure theres NO audio end issue
Abdullah : Thank you for your valueable time and patience.
Abdullah : In order to isolate the issue we need to reformate the Notebook.
marie zymbotica : uhh i think i need to know where the itunes directory is so i can delete it
marie zymbotica : ive had this computer sence feb 11th like the whole time in some way or another ive been specal configging it for mer i JUST got my mac theme re-applyied
Abdullah : I understand your concern.
Abdullah : I understand that you want to uninstall the iTunes.
marie zymbotica : really? you DO? this computer may have an os i hate but even this like a;ll my outher computers has taken a LOT of abuse--aka running too much at once sorta abuse-- of those computers most are hp towers soo i figured the laptops had ta be decent an this outperforms my best tower
marie zymbotica : and there ios no "the" its jus itunes
Abdullah : Marie, I am sorry to inform you that as we don't have much information about the iTunes, I kindly request you to contact the Apple.com who provides the iTunes application. They may be able to assist you better.
marie zymbotica : well if youre done on itunes why would ther cddrive the gui read unburned an unformatted disk when cmd shows theres stuff there? i had t0o use cmd to install spore which i got fer x-mas had ta dfo it 4 times actually as an update

with spore an they havent done

soo i had ta uninstall it
marie zymbotica : --as fer side info when this computer was jus 10 days old i called apple they said microshaft who thru tonnes an

said hp hp eventually said microshaft who REFUSED to help an it FINALLY authporised when i took it to the geek squad i had been workin on that thiong on an off fer like 3 days BEFORE i called
marie zymbotica : --im kinda gettin tired of alla this waitin
Abdullah : I really understand you are getting tired of all the issue.
Abdullah : I recommend you to Restore the Notebook to Factory Settings to get ride of all this issues.
marie zymbotica : i REFUSE to do that you dont know HOW teweaked this computer is
marie zymbotica : an i did that over amillion times with my sapos it NEVER fixed it there was a point fer like a week i was whiping that sapos DAILY
marie zymbotica : --syi sapos is an 02 xp a hp AND my SINLGE worst computer
Abdullah : Please let me know the exact issue with the CD/DVD drive so that I can assist you better.
marie zymbotica : i allready said
marie zymbotica : well if youre done on itunes why would ther cddrive the gui read unburned an unformatted disk when cmd shows theres stuff there? i had t0o use cmd to install spore which i got fer x-mas had ta dfo it 4 times actually as an update

with spore an they havent done

soo i had ta uninstall it
marie zymbotica : or do you not understand geek?
Abdullah : I did not get you clearly.
marie zymbotica : where are you confused?
marie zymbotica : all i know an all my more geeky friends know say that the gui shiould say the SAME thing that cmd shows
Abdullah : I am sorry that I unable to understand your language.
marie zymbotica : its simple geek
marie zymbotica : io was in my local colledge it tech suppourt ptrogrram oh look youre
marie zymbotica : giving tech suppourt
marie zymbotica : soo id FIGURE youd understand the terms i was taught
Abdullah : The DVD which is showing the data in the Command prompt not in the DVD. And we can see the data in cmd but we cannot access the data from the DVD as the data might have corrupted.
marie zymbotica : ITS NOT CORRUPTED
marie zymbotica : these disks are disks that work in outher cddrives an even dvd players
marie zymbotica : it said x3 wqas unburned an unformatted well lookie lookie x3 had worked JUST fine in the dvd playier it said that of a cd i need fer one of my classes a cde that worked JUST fine in the school computers itts said spore an its ep even i think was unburned an unformatted i installed spore FROM cmd
marie zymbotica : --oh installing spore was erasy LOL e: enter autorun.exe enter c: enter repeat but why bother with that when i can CLICK everything
Abdullah : May I know what the word Spore is?
marie zymbotica : its called a VIDEOGAME
marie zymbotica : this ir one FOR the computer
marie zymbotica : --oh AND this cddrive was replaced cause it was showing EVERYTHIONG as unburned unformatted tested right away it worked one week later tested the cd fer my cklass an unburned an unformatted
Abdullah : Marrie, as after replacing the Optical drive and the issue is still persists, in this case I recommend you to again replace the Optical drive. Before that I need to check the warranty status for your Notebook to arrange a free mail in repair service.
Abdullah : To check the warranty I need the Serial and Product Number of the Notebook.
marie zymbotica : the drive WAS replaced the issue lies somewhere in the gui
marie zymbotica : and its still under warranty i tested the drive i KNOW its the gui cause cmd shows theres stuff there soo then logic sais MUST be the gui as they look at the SAME

marie zymbotica : you dont care an i need ta help myt mom im outta here if you decide to help you have my e-mail address

--theres the full log i might add LOTS of pauses between what that one said prolly translating to idiot fer themselves as we all know i fail at idiot