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| tarotgirl |
Bitches, gripes and moans;aka things that piss you off!OK I was working with i friend whom I love dearly. But she is a pain in the ass sometimes and I realized there needs to be a place where we can vent. So I made one.... hehe
One thing that pisses me off is when people have no curtsey to others. For example I was on the fourth floor of the library today walking towards the elevator doors as they were shutting. I said can you hold the door to the woman who was inside and stuck my papers in to make the door open. I said thank you so much to the woman and you know what her response was..."don't bother the doors were already shutting you could have waited for it to come back up." 
I mean really this damn woman had the nerve to say that to me! and my response was..." oh sorry next time I will remember that some people like you have no compassion or courtesy for others" i mean come on she wanted me to wait up to five minutes so she could save a few seconds. 
such open disregard and contempt from this woman really pissed me off and she is really quite a lucky woman as my good friends will attest; one should not wake the Monster. 
As the doors opened I told her to have a nice day and left.... 
TG |
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| Rev/Scout |
Right on Tarotgirl. You handled the situation well!
A friend of mine recently told me that when someone really gets her goat she just says "I love you!", and leaves. It flabbergasts people. They don't know how to react. Reverend Annie |
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| biyu |
ok i know this is my 1st post here lol but there HAVE been times where ive really wanted ta punch somethin lol anywho tho im able most iof the time--id say allways but dont know if yet or not-- to analyse to some extent if that happens just relax step back an see thru outher eyes may sound hard lol but relax i mean some people they just DONT care ive tryied with my mom get her to realise that no im NOT like her im gifted she dosent care so ive stopped caring but after a certain point yea it dos irk me | ||||
| tarotgirl |
gifts/cursesI always got from my grandmother about my gifts, she refered to them as curses. People who know not cannot understand, they have no capasity to and nothing to compare it in their lives, so i am somewhat tollerant of people like that but neither do i let them go without some form of comment, sometimes rude, always sarcastic....
TG |
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| biyu |
well lol i think everyone has access to gifts/abilities lol its just some were trained not to use them so they dont know of them some dont even see intuition as a gift lol (ok lol i SOO wanna say that some dont even realise what a gift love is but leavin here) soo yea i guess im not AS likely fer a scarastic comment or that but then lol i HAVE changed a LOT sence the summer started
edit scout i hope you dont mind minor swearing if you do i dont mind an edit or 20 11:39 PM [Biyu] u hurt me 11:40 PM [crystal_biyu] how? 11:40 PM [Biyu] u shall now pay! Biyu has closed his/her private message window. Biyu has logged out. 12:07 AM [Biyu] hello 12:07 AM [crystal_biyu] yea? 12:07 AM [Biyu] i told ill be back 12:08 AM [crystal_biyu] whats the issue thio? 12:08 AM [Biyu] im smarter than you think 12:08 AM [crystal_biyu] what did i ever do to you? 12:08 AM [Biyu] YOU JUST THROW PEOPLE IN THE TRASH CAN DISPOSING OF THEM 12:09 AM [crystal_biyu] SOOO smart you dont know every language i use lets see you DONT know who i am what biyu means or anything ABPOUT me 12:09 AM [crystal_biyu] an i do not 12:09 AM [Biyu] you do 12:09 AM [Biyu] think THINK 12:10 AM [crystal_biyu] it may seem if you come into an INDIGO chat thinkin its a KIDS chat 12:10 AM [Biyu] 12:10 AM [Biyu] you think its all about you?] 12:11 AM [crystal_biyu] it sounds youre issue is with a former indigo that HAPPENS to also be an adult 12:11 AM [crystal_biyu] seriously give it up most indigos ARE adults this is an INDIGO chat 12:12 AM [Biyu] name an indigo adult name 5 ! 12:14 AM [crystal_biyu] lets see me daz tk ally an hmm harley an fer good number angel too 12:14 AM [crystal_biyu] why join a chat you know nothing about? 12:15 AM [Biyu] fine name 10 ! 12:15 AM [crystal_biyu] the topic is indigos i expect someone tpo know the basics list a few traits prove theyve read somethiing 12:15 AM [crystal_biyu] i didnt pull THAT on anyone 12:16 AM [crystal_biyu] i do 3 or 5 there are like 20 or 25 total on one site fer KIDS indigo traits 12:16 AM [Biyu] so you cant name ten? 12:16 AM [Biyu] 12:16 AM [Biyu] what a loser 12:17 AM [crystal_biyu] yet you dont know anything about indigos do you? 12:17 AM [Biyu] ok then if 10 to high what about 8 12:18 AM [crystal_biyu] i studyied info fer acouple years 12:18 AM [crystal_biyu] what do you know about indigos? 12:19 AM [crystal_biyu] or better WHY do you seek to destroy me ronnie? 12:19 AM [Biyu] ronnie wtf? 12:20 AM [crystal_biyu] why do you seek to destroy me? 12:20 AM [Biyu] what ronnie who the fu.ck is ronnie? 12:21 AM [crystal_biyu] youre smart huh? cant even get past a simple filter what a dick 12:21 AM [Biyu] please women 12:22 AM [crystal_biyu] answer why you wanna destroy me 12:22 AM [Biyu] only if you tell me ten adult indigos that come on! 12:23 AM [crystal_biyu] why? so you have more people to werak? 12:24 AM [crystal_biyu] i NEVER asked fer 10 traits an even when i asked 5 if the main things were said an its clear some knowledge then id be ok 12:24 AM [crystal_biyu] just tell me WHY the h311 you wanna wreak me? 12:25 AM [crystal_biyu] WHY do you think youre SOOO much better? 12:27 AM [crystal_biyu] no? 12:27 AM [crystal_biyu] too much of a dick to answer some REAL questions? 12:29 AM [Biyu] so not even 10? 12:29 AM [crystal_biyu] just tell me WHY the h311 you wanna wreak me? 12:29 AM [crystal_biyu] WHY do you think youre SOOO much better? 12:30 AM [crystal_biyu] just tell me WHY the h311 you wanna wreak me? 12:30 AM [crystal_biyu] WHY do you think youre SOOO much better? 12:30 AM [crystal_biyu] WHY do you think youre SOOO much better? 12:30 AM [crystal_biyu] just tell me WHY the h311 you wanna wreak me? 12:30 AM [crystal_biyu] WHY do you think youre SOOO much better? 12:30 AM [crystal_biyu] just tell me WHY the h311 you wanna wreak me? 12:30 AM [crystal_biyu] WHY do you think youre SOOO much better? 12:30 AM [crystal_biyu] just tell me WHY the h311 you wanna wreak me? 12:30 AM [Biyu] i told ten people ten answers 12:31 AM [Biyu] so you tell me ten people who are indigo adults 12:31 AM [crystal_biyu] answer MY questions 455h013 12:31 AM [crystal_biyu] an NOW 12:31 AM [Biyu] ten people! 12:32 AM [Biyu] ten answers 12:32 AM [crystal_biyu] WHY do you wanna wreak me? 12:33 AM [Biyu] ten people NOW 12:34 AM [Biyu] wreak you 12:34 AM [Biyu] i tell you if you answer my question afterwards 12:35 AM [crystal_biyu] fine 12:35 AM [crystal_biyu] tell me youre answer 12:36 AM [crystal_biyu] whats youre excuse 12:36 AM [Biyu] why not you ur like there leader everytime your ofline it " where biyu" or " biyu will know what to do " PLEASE 12:36 AM [crystal_biyu] i doubt that 12:36 AM [Biyu] really 12:36 AM [Biyu] ur not there when ur offline! 12:37 AM [crystal_biyu] an i cant help what they say they know who can an cant be trusted 12:37 AM [Biyu] really can you be trusted smarterbrain? 12:37 AM [crystal_biyu] so? im actually usted ta beeing known i WAS famus for 3 days after a talent show an EVERYONE knew who i was in highschool 12:38 AM [crystal_biyu] if they feel i can be they must have there reasons 12:39 AM [Biyu] highschool? ur still worried about highschool?! 12:39 AM [Biyu] PLEASE YOU KNOW IT 12:39 AM [Biyu] now my question 10 indigo adults 12:40 AM [crystal_biyu] im PAST highschool i was using as an example i HASVE a diploma 12:40 AM [Biyu] 10 12:40 AM [crystal_biyu] an no i DIDNT know they were like that 12:40 AM [Biyu] 10 12:40 AM [crystal_biyu] i thought outhers got the brunt of the blow 12:41 AM [Biyu] 10 12:41 AM [Biyu] 10 12:41 AM [Biyu] 10 12:41 AM [Biyu] 10 12:41 AM [Biyu] well 12:41 AM [Biyu] ten indigo adutls 12:41 AM [crystal_biyu] i CAN ignore you now i got info i wanted 12:42 AM [crystal_biyu] it WOULDNT be bypond me 12:42 AM [Biyu] there more knowledge 12:42 AM [Biyu] but u dot want to know who i am 12:43 AM [crystal_biyu] id LIKE to know but ive enough info 12:44 AM [Biyu] really 12:44 AM [Biyu] fine hear me 12:44 AM [Biyu] out 12:44 AM [crystal_biyu] im listenin 12:44 AM [Biyu] im someone you know 12:44 AM [Biyu] someone close 12:45 AM [Biyu] who can guess 12:45 AM [crystal_biyu] then why use my name? 12:45 AM [Biyu] who i am 12:45 AM [Biyu] to hurt you 12:45 AM [crystal_biyu] but why? 12:45 AM [Biyu] when ur not on ill be you 12:45 AM [Biyu] why 12:45 AM [crystal_biyu] but WHY? 12:45 AM [Biyu] well 12:46 AM [Biyu] WHERES MY 10 PEOPLE 12:46 AM [crystal_biyu] answer me 12:47 AM [Biyu] answer me we had an agreement 12:47 AM [crystal_biyu] i never specifically stated agreement 12:47 AM [Biyu] then neither did i 12:47 AM [Biyu] just tell me 10 people or no answers 12:47 AM [crystal_biyu] yet you still told me 12:48 AM [crystal_biyu] hmm source tells me 12:36 AM [Biyu] why not you ur like there leader everytime your ofline it " where biyu" or " biyu will know what to do " PLEASE is a loe 12:48 AM [Biyu] whos source? 12:48 AM [Biyu] i might be me 12:48 AM [Biyu] your source must be close 12:49 AM [crystal_biyu] who are you 12:49 AM [Biyu] ah ba ba my answers first! 12:50 AM [crystal_biyu] uhh no mine 12:50 AM [Biyu] nope mine first 12:51 AM [crystal_biyu] if i REALLY am the leader then you should recognise athority an follow as it sais 12:52 AM [Biyu] well see thats what i mean 12:52 AM [Biyu] ur rfull of it 12:53 AM [Biyu] u think u their leader 12:53 AM [crystal_biyu] uhh you were the one to say im the leader 12:54 AM [crystal_biyu] YOU said " [Biyu] why not you ur like there leader" oh look you called me there leader i was drawing an instance based offa that 12:55 AM [Biyu] really or were you thinking OMG hes right i am leader 12:55 AM [crystal_biyu] instance 12:55 AM [Biyu] shes correct i am leader 12:55 AM [Biyu] so 12:55 AM [crystal_biyu] an you arte? 12:56 AM [Biyu] im the NEW LEADER 12:56 AM [crystal_biyu] yea right 12:56 AM [Biyu] arte? 12:56 AM [crystal_biyu] are 12:56 AM [Biyu] i will be once i destroy you! 12:56 AM [crystal_biyu] its called a typo 12:56 AM [crystal_biyu] but WHY do you wanna destroy me?> 12:56 AM [crystal_biyu] are you jelous? 12:56 AM [Biyu] oh i wouldnt know coz i never make mistakes 12:57 AM [crystal_biyu] cause i dont know bout but i atleast had ta earn where i am 12:57 AM [crystal_biyu] really? you CANT easilt loop past the filter one big dick id say 12:58 AM [Biyu] please 12:58 AM [Biyu] women these days 12:58 AM [crystal_biyu] what? 12:59 AM [crystal_biyu] just tell me WHY you wanna destroy me then 1:00 AM [crystal_biyu] cause it SOUNDS like youre jelous of me you wish you were me but theres only you know how to get but im tellin ya gifts done come with an there nessary 1:01 AM [Biyu] aragancew 1:02 AM [crystal_biyu] yall callin me arrogant? 1:02 AM [Biyu] who would look up to you! *slap* 1:02 AM [crystal_biyu] YOU were the one to call me there leader 1:02 AM [crystal_biyu] YOU said " [Biyu] why not you ur like there leader" oh look you called me there leader i was drawing an instance based offa that 1:03 AM [Biyu] you are there leader weed told me so and DAZED 1:03 AM [crystal_biyu] really? 1:03 AM [Biyu] REally! 1:04 AM [crystal_biyu] then why dos daz like to tell me to back down? 1:04 AM [Biyu] dont sound so shocked 1:04 AM [Biyu] down to where? 1:04 AM [crystal_biyu] i am weed has seen from outsiders perspective 1:06 AM [Biyu] look i gtg i have a life unlike other who are up to who knows when tonight on here cya . i dont look up to you AND I KNOW HEAPS OF INDIGO ADUTLS AND R FRIENDS WITH THEM I HAVE A LIFE 1:06 AM [Biyu] i will ruin you 1:06 AM [crystal_biyu] well stop usin my name 1:06 AM [Biyu] so badly 1:06 AM [crystal_biyu] WHY? 1:06 AM [Biyu] i wont stop ever 1:06 AM [Biyu] BADBYE Biyu has closed his/her private message window. im KNOWN as biyu i DONT get this fakers issue an NOW i wanna punch something my crystalness it takes a LOT to get me where i wanna destroy somethin well im teetering on that edge i just want SIMPLKE questions answered ok seriously what the hell is this guys issue? its startin ta irk me i got close to wanting to punch somethin ALLMOST took it out on my keyboard i WAS calm fer most of it if that means anythin |
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| Rev/Scout |
biyu, the energy of it IS ronnie. there are also a few statements that ronnie made b4 that were in there. I think he is back to his old tricks. Trust me. It blew him away that you said his name too. He changed the subject real quick as you probably noticed.
He is still out to get all adults out of that chat room, even though it is mostly made up of adults. He talked about the rules before. Someone mentioned the fact that people are supposed to treat people with respect and remember who they are in there. It shut him up for a few minutes..till he came in using another name, several times. I knew it was him by his energy each time, even if he didn't say much. So don't sweat it. We all love you,k and I know your energy....I also know his. He will not destroy you. I have a chat room, as you well know. If worse comes to worse we can move over to there. He can sit by himself in the other one. LOL |
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| biyu |
lol yea thing is lol well fer 1 ive been on an off thiinkin bout leaving fer abit now but most of the people there i love so much i dont know if you know this or not lol but fer abit the name angel was a trigger fer me someone else coming in as angel just pissed me off soo much but i think its better now someone came in AS angel i just asked who they were not "youre stealin my name grrr grr grr" soo yea
tarrot girl if youre confused lol theres an "indigo childrens chat" thats how i met scout lol actually alot of people lol well we know its an indigo chat room but MANY kids come in thinkin its a kids chat lol then they see BUNCHES of adults lol soo yea ive actually known of it a LOT longer then ive been using it |
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| tarotgirl |
gamestrix are for kids y'all. Why do you even go in there? I find everyone has an, some have two...one at both ends. either way nothing but comes out.
TG |
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| biyu |
lol thats good but ive met a LOT of great people in there heack if i never decided ta chat there in the first polacew i wouyldnt have met scout lol an i DOUBT id be gettin tan know ya tarot girl | ||||
| tarotgirl |
the universeThe universe works in ways I do not claim to understand, and yet if we were destined to meet, we meet. I feel i waste time dealing with chat room queens of any gender, and I have little tollerance for.
thus I trust the universe to guide my path, and often wander near the edge, but rarely fall.
Y'all enjoy, cause that is what it is all about. If you find comfort and enjoy life it is all good. TG |
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| biyu |
awesomeness lol an queens can be fun especally the plastic ones it sounds (one or 2 of my friends we WILL talk bout anything asn everything lol an apparentally one of the people i worked with backstage was a plastic i thought he was cool lol another gave me the impression he was gey yet openly talks about it being a sin i never asked eighter of them lol) | ||||
| tarotgirl |
HahahaI live in perpetual sin....according to some...
TG |
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| biyu |
lol if thyere idiotic enough to thinki that screw them lol case in point my mom she dosent believe in gifts ive tryied explaining to her before but i havent gotten thru like EVER so bad bad bad biyu but ive given up shees also really negative cant figure why but she is so to a point ive stoped caring but after that pooint im not afraid to yell at her i mean i dont know HOW many times shees threatened to throw kitten out an why JUST to piss me the off ill bet so yea least i dont have quite the temper i usted ta
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| biyu |
ok lol someone came on pissed i tryied ta help first felt like i was beein overlooked then one yelled at me sayin i wasnt dooin something right or some bullosk an well lol i JUST feel like i was bascally kicked offa my own dam chat i mean granted it WAS created for all who were on indigo an whoever stumples across it but still gettin bascally booted for trying to HELP??????? yea i was thinkin of a ban i think i may now lol if i decide not to take that break | ||||
| tarotgirl |
rainy day fluI am sick blah it is a rainy day which is ok but i woke up very early this am with the damn flu, two exits no waiing, kinda flu. So am bitchy and grumpy and do nay feel welllll. 
And i get to watch my neighbors vacate their apartments....interesting tid bit tho, the ones we expected to go seem to be hunkering down for the long haul while another is a suprise but not a shock... ah the wonders of apt living. TG |
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| biyu |
whats gooin on? i mean ta get them to leave lol
an today has been strange lol i was gettin so far away from needed anger an today i got kinda grr i had to stop myself from gooin too far an helpin my uncle cook i felt kinda like i was less then kinda like a pesant may have an yea think tho that http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=_IBXRwORO2o&feature=related an related are gonna realy help me lol--aka thanks fer that link scout |
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| Rev/Scout |
ArroganceYou ever try very very hard to help someone and then get shot down each time? Have ever been called a liar because someone thinks you know all the answers and you keep telling them you don't, and they keep accusing you of holding back answers, when the only things you hold from them are things that relate to you and have NOTHING to do with them?Have you ever listened to God, then had someone else think that THEY knew better than God? As far as I am concerned, only God knows all the answers. It is not to say that we do not come up with SOME answers even as frequently as every day, but only with God's help. You ever try to give someone direction that instead wants everything on a silver platter, someone not willing to do the research? Have you ever recommended certain books that would give that person almost all the answers that they seek, over and over, and had them refuse to read the books, yet ask the same questions over and over that relate to what is in the books recommended? God has His/Her own plans for us. For instance, I prayed the other day for more money to support my family. A few thoughts crossed my mind, more Reiki clients and students, the proverbial lottery win, unexpected inheritance, you know, the usual. I thought about phasing out my job in a taxi cab company dispatch office as a calltaker, and getting more into healing. What does God come up with? What gets thrown into the mix? Suddenly a dispatcher comes in to see me privately and tells me he is quitting his job (the guy has been there for many years, and until this point showed no sign of leaving). He tells me that the only reason I haven't been offered the position earlier was because they needed calltakers and I am a great one. He says I should apply for the position. It offers a few dollars an hour more money too. So now you see, God does not always follow the most obvious path, but we follow the path shown by God. God sometimes has different plans for us than the ones we think we have. They are not our plans. They are God's. I do not blame God for not allowing us to tell certain things to others at certain times, or not showing us the signs that we request at a certain time. Instead I thank God and praise Him/Her for picking just the right time for things to be revealed. Arrogance, to me, is to think that one's own ideas of how things should go are better than God's. After: - over 20 years of research (me) 25 years (TG) = 45 between us - regression after regression (around a dozen lives for me so far) - dream after dream (painstakingly keeping track and interpreting) - trance after trance, accessing higher self for answers - prayer after prayer, some answered in a visible and/or noticeable way and some not - spending numerous hours while at work and at home trying to help people, including most of every day off - going weeks on end with 4 hours or less of sleep per day because people were in need - asking God to show us signs and then sharing those signs with others when they appear - having to send TG chi balls every day because she is getting so depleted - having to send my own self chi balls every day because I am getting depleted as well - sorting through a myriad of videos and watching them all, just for some small clue or spark of some ancient memory (which sometimes we get and sometimes we don't) - reading ancient and other texts until we drop - posting in here and sending video and other links separately to people who request them ...we are told that our help is not needed and that with or without our help this person will achieve what she is supposed to. We are told that because we cannot come up with a name for this person in a certain lifetime, although we both saw her and her child, although we get glimpses but not words, pictures not sound, our help is not relevant and we are liars. "Why am I so important?", she asks. Why is anyone important? Why is a single cell important to the whole body? Why is a single organ important to the functioning of the whole? Without it what happens? With a spleen, liver, kidneys, lungs, eyes, ears, pancreas, etc., what need would we have of a heart? After all, it is only one organ and we have several! Her question seems moot to me. We do not need to know who she was in a past life, or whether she was "important" then, to know that she, and everyone else on this earth have a purpose. Well I wish you all the luck, when, as we have already told you, part of what you seek is not even on this plane anymore, and you are distancing yourself from all those that can help you along the way to what you seek. We, and others, have tried to help. God helps those who help themselves. I do not ever recall ever being sent into the life of someone who did not need me in some way. Let those with eyes see; let those with ears hear. |
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| biyu |
if she thinks shees better an she can do it all by herself let her she dosent seem to care an dosent seem to WANT the help in the first place yall are awesome to continue to try to help her
an as fer me lol i have thoughts an ideals an that im more then aware at times they may not be truth but just opinnions am i wish outhers to see as just opinnions my intrepertation soo yea ive kinda figured im stronger then even i think at times that there are things i can do that i dont realise id love to know what they are an i wouldnt even know where to start with finding them lol (ok gettin semi me-centric lol) i know of my stars i know i can create like orbs that kinda clicked i can kinda see them an its only recent i have figuered some form of clearing my space (BBBUUURRNN!!!!!!!!!!--ok few would get that) but scout you need the sleep take it lol you know me im shure time passes differentally between both dimensions some may think its faster or slower but the reality is time just is i know tmorra i wanna sleep the in lol i got some sleep today but somethgin IS gooin on lol few minutes or so of sleep long as i feel ok i dont mind lol
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| Rev/Scout |
Thanks, bi. I don't get angry at people often, but to tell you the truth, I usually respect someone until they show disrespect to me or mine, and this person has. I have EARNED respect for the last almost 50 years. I have worked on it very hard. I believe that during that time there may have been times that I did not deserve respect. During those moments, I did not expect it either. Now I can say truthfully, that I have done the work. I have earned every ounce of respect given, and every ounce due. I am a Reverend for a reason. I try to bring about peace and harmony when I can, especially in matters where we are supposed to be working as a team. However, when one person goes off and thinks that she is all that and a bag of chips and does not need the help that she herself asked for in the first place, then I must protest. I can't speak for TG, but I feel offended by actions that belittle all the decades of work that we have done to get us to where we are today. The books that I recommended to the young lady were done for a reason, and the same with the texts that TG directed her to, even though she may brush them aside as being unnecessary, without so much as a glance. We recommended them for a reason, as there are clues, some blatant, some subtle, yet clues all the same, to what she is seeking. The young lady might want to realize one major factor. Even if she finds what she is seeking, there is only one person on this whole earthly plane that knows what to do with it, and it is not her. Hmmmm...something to think about. Rev/Scout |
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| biyu |
are those chips ketchup flavored? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL io uysted ta love them its a summer thing down here last time i had some too much vinegar like flavor fer my tastes hopefully thats all semi-random i post right now lol
team all work together in HARMONY we ARE from different backgrounds in this life atleast there are ones of MANY ages again this life physical sence an yea i think it was HER that had mentioned something to me about many people many differences coming together working in harmony i was kinda "meh" then an lol im simalar now i guess i just think when all are ready it will work but before then an to get there there may be a few hardships soo yea learning experiences if they cant look away from there issues fer even a second then how can we as a group a team if you will work together in harmony? if she volenteered she should REALISE how things are but hey that be the human ego for ya
dont remember if ive allways felt ive deserved respect but yea lol i try to give whoever i meet atleast some respect till they prove they cant take it an i know my memory isnt the best lol now i kinda remember what i need to lol soo yea but then if im unshure an talking to some RANDOM person (tg not random) ill see what my instincts are saying about them an factor them into the equasion soo yea its kinda sad when someone dos something to betray trust an they dont even think they did anything wrong (i wanna talk to her just lol as i have like before this try figure things out but i kinda think i might bring this up somehow soo yea) |
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| tarotgirl |
two centsAnne i think it is admirable that you feel the need to protect me in certain situations and I love you for it. Bi you are one of the freshest most open minds I have met in quite a while, and I love you for the hope you give me.I know that there seems to be a difference of opinion amoung certain parties, but I dont see it that way. I know the battle is really no battle at all, there is no substance supporting a true fight. What is happening here is a merger between to powers, and some involved dont realize this. Maybe they feel the need to instill some kinda pecking order, i believe this all boils down to a power play, and bi's right, ego. But not mine, maye anne's cause she seems pretty pissed, I donno. but i do know MY place in god/dess's grand sceeme. And frankly that's all I really need to know. I keep on researhing and helping those I can, if and when they are ready they always come back. Anne you know this, Bi i think you do too. in fact i think everyone involved knows it deep down. For this for the mother, father, love and the balance I accept this. The only thing that is being wasted are a few steps and a bit of time, not mine. I dont question god/dess that often but when I do it is because it really bothers me. I really dont have the extra energy to put into being botherd by it at all, so let the river flow... many steps have already been traveld let her walk upon them again.... and thank you but for your insight and careing. TG |
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| Rev/Scout |
Ranting and ravingWell you know me, TG, rant and rave, then send love and light...lol!I have always been one to fight against perceived injustices. I know God/dess will sort it all out in the end. I await with love in my heart. As for ego, I am trying to overcome that particular obstacle.lol I, for one, have always been able to work with, and even below others without too much difficulty, as long as they have it in their hearts to do the same. I play well with others usually..heheh. I know my place in the pecking order pretty much, and always have. I do not vie for top spot, for various reasons, and, to tell you the truth, one of those reasons is that there is a heck of a lot of responsibility up there! Like I don't have enough responsibility in my life already! I know we all play a part in things, from the top to the bottom, like a ladder. There may be many rungs. All lead to the top. There are many levels. However, if one is missing, it makes it that much more difficult to get to the destination. As for protecting you, TG....it's my job and always has been 
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| biyu |
tg all i am an all i really wish to be lol is me if i need to take a certain path so mote it be if i feel a calling to be somewhere ill do all i can to get there an yera i trust lol thast all things will work out as there ment to from the "higher power" down to us an lol tg i DONT see muchless feel the need fer a fight an when some keep saying there WILL be a fight im like WHY? all a fight dos is prove that there is and can be violence an lol as i see it (note OPINNION) violence=fear eighter from or creates perhaps some on both levels soo yea no need fer a fight in my mind soo yea my mind scout didnt really feel too mad lol but then thery is some of ther anger i atleast had woulda been triggered if she was or somehow i woulda FELT it lol scout fer me atleast lol i think the ego is only what you make of it what YOU give it remember lol it likes the fight it likes beeing superior give it a chance to do what it likes an it will be happy soo yea lol working with oyuthers well lol as an indigo i tryied it wasnt usially too easy fer me i could work those above me easdily soo yea (above=teachers at level=students)
too true lol i havent allways known my spot lol ive semi-been a leader at times fer my friends but ive also backed down al let them take over too soo yea its still true follow youre heart trust an things are usially good an lol if one is missing we can choose to make it hard or we can go around it soo yea its just an opsticle see how you will lol ok imma take my hint an stfu now lol love ya both nope not leavin the forum jus feel like sayin it |
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| tarotgirl |
biI think we all should be able to say what we are feeling and not fear being dissed about it. Especially in this thread. so you all go ahead use it for its intended purpose; to sort out our.... TG
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| biyu |
tg you think ive been tryin ta be anything but open here? yea im aware i have opinnions i PROMISE im not tryin ta force them on any an if it ever seems i am peas peas peas tell me make shure i know it i love both of ya (tg an scout) | ||||
| biyu |
ok? that sounds bad lol been tryin ta be open lol yall know me i think lol | ||||
| Rev/Scout |
threadyes we all know your gutter mind bi LMAO!!!! i think TG is just saying that sorting things out is what this particular thread is for and by all means be open if you want. That no one is gonna diss you for it, or hopefully anyone else either. we are full of light and love here. i may rant and rave sometimes..but i try to be respectful at the same time.Rev/Scout |
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| biyu |
an i haver no proof in my experience of you beein anything but awesome lol --i didnt even remember that first time we met till you mentioned it lol think cause not fully you my memory overlooked it lol yup time to thanmk my strange memory lol an i hope this is only ever filled with love an light | ||||
| tarotgirl |
stuffyes i want this to be a place we can be pissed and not feel threated or judged. it also helps ppl work their stuff out, to be able to throw it around a bit helps get it out of your self and into the open where stuff is less threatening. And other ppl always have other veiws of situations. helps us see from different angles.I feel content to let you all sort this stuff out, I know I have nothing to fear in any of it. I know some was dorected towards me but I really dont care about that "stuff" it belongs to another and not me. I am secure in my position in the grand plan, i couldnt get away from it if i wanted too; believe me I have tried. (when I was sad and alone) my point being that I have faith and hope for the future, i know what said person works on is a peice of truth that must come to light before the puzzle is complete.  I thank you again for feeling the need to vent and sort out all this stuff. but remeber, there are many peices to this puzzle and that stuff is just one. Continue to let the river flow, dont engage in negative banter, love and light makes us grow, beloved be love.
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| biyu |
lol yea ive said before an ill continue to say that i choose to be neutral in that matter even if im the only one i sghall continue ill do as i can to offer what perspective i have eighter myself or said just rephrasing to me lol on the matter i really wish all concerened could atleast tolerate each outher come to some understanding yea i do think people can choose to see what they see thasts likely why i was one of 2 (outher beein a pratical twin to me lol) to not see one as dark or the like i mean you live in light where is the darkness? its there shure but beein drowned out by the light ya live in least id think | ||||
| tarotgirl |
seeing stuffi dont see things in extremes either I know it takes all forms of matter to keep the balance, that all have their place in the comic order of things. I dont worry about most stuff, i figure god/dess will let me know what I need to know when I need it. So I move on....Is much better to sit and watch the river flow than to try and row against it. TG |
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| biyu |
agreed lol thats why im kinda seein as i am here lol an i dont think imma bring it up unless she dos or yall fer that matter ive takled to the women lol an i feel i can offer insite an say somewhat what they told me scout knows ive done that i trust im honest its ME lol
shell get it EVENTUALLY yall see how my mind works yall know when things click fer me |
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| tarotgirl |
arrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhh!!!You know I get really nervous and impatient sometimes, I dont know why it is like I have ll this energy I need to GET OUT. and when i am like that I tend to be a bitch. lol
But I really mean no harm, i just got to get it out then and there. Today is persued by a relentless damn popup that I couldnt seem to stop. It interefered badly with my research. So after hours of frustrated failure a friend tried to help out, which was cool. Unfortunatly said friend was half asleep at the time, then proceeded to fall asleep lmao. But finally between my bitching and her sleeping we got it together and found a way around the damn pop up. thanks for being you and bearing with me.... TG |
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| biyu |
aww lol dontcha use firefox tg? an i bet i can guess who LOLOLOLOLOL im strangely still semi-in my mood that i was in lastnight all i have ta say is be glad youre not online LOLOLOLOLOL --i think i annoyied the hell outta scout lol | ||||
| tarotgirl |
yes bi u know who. but god/dess I love her. She be good woman,sometimes a little crazy, but her heart is made of gold. That site's infected even google has a warning so please stay outa gnosis.o r g. until they fix it.
love u both..... TG |
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| biyu |
dont think ive been there like at all lol nope lol firefox dosent recognise gnos fer anythin an lol i love ya (both) too | ||||
| tarotgirl |
maybe they finally fixed the damn thing.... TG | ||||
| biyu |
wanna chance it? or lol have someone with a pop-upblocker an crapware protection on there computer try?
(an scout? thanks a ton much much MUCH less ta scrool thru)
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| Rev/Scout |
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You're welcome biyu, and thank you. I am slowly figuring out all the ins and outs of this site....with help.
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| biyu |
help? lol i was am lol still am tho ive ditched it lol but admin on proboards forum lol this place way the better--are people many of which i love an i remember enough of the stuff lol--proboards is it lol an i still knoe bbc fer the mostpart lol what i use i know
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| biyu |
i have a grr fer yall i PRISE my real lighting i LOVE how good ,my eyes are an get THEN my mom an beloved fake lighting has ta everything up GGRRR its annoyin as HELL shure she works in a hospital but as even my old 95 isnt currentally the "norm"
oh shure NOW its the hurry the up tatic i asked fer a 15-20 min break ta relax well took 5 ta get my baby loaded up an yea the thing is when EVER we go to the dump shees a "supervisor" cause shees soo weak she complains bout having to lift 300 pound patients at work im the strong one its annoyin she dosent realise tho some strength is just there some was created as a way to re-channel my anger from how the assholes were treating me in middle school oh an yup ive ALLWAYS been different its only recentally ive found a "group" lol with one thats like a twin ta me an outhers that seem tpo really understand me an i LOVE it
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| tarotgirl |
welllBi sounds like you an mom had a fun day! lol But really am glad you found kindred, peoplle whio understand without have to explain it to them. It is a blessing indeed.... TG |
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| biyu |
aww an yea you should know tg lol i call ya one lol | ||||
| tarotgirl |
AAAAAAAaaarghh!Did you ever have to work with someone who always shot you down and treated you like you never contributed anything of merit? And then everytime you disagree with them they say or you are makeing bs and drama again, when it is actually them getting bent outa shape? Cause you said "I think you may be wrong?" Attitudism irks me to no end. When one or two people think they are so far above the rest that the rest are stupid. And sad fact is they're the ones creating all this dessention.
If I were to believe that only I knew the truth and no ones elses opinions or ideas ment diddly I would hate myself. I can not understand why it is so damn hard for them to accept they dont know it? all but I for one am too old and tired to put up with this sort of disrespect any longer. I am stepping back from that , they got demons all around um and I dont need the exposure. They are constatly battleing ego and pride, can we not just say everyone has a valid veiw and should be considered with the respect they treat your veiws...? Yup I am a bitch that's right! I refuse to be disrespected, especially by some one who is too full of self to see with the eyes God/dess gave us.
Tired tarot bids those too Ah du" There is a time and a place for everything and I got plenty of time, do you? TG |
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| biyu |
aww they just need to remember who they REALLY are and lol we should --my opinnion lol-- realise that tho we may have overcome something not all have some have outher battles or so to speak the longer they go withought dooin somethuing some things will get worse soo yea those ones youre complaining i think those with the issues should lol take a step lol --i know im not perfect but im still intreasted in learnin an that | ||||
| biyu |
such a WONDERFULL thanksgiving it is!!! BULL !!!!!!!!!! this is atleast the 2nd time ive gotten mad an well if i was able to i proubly woulda went somewhere else an deecide to with some energy cause i know my anger i know my strength even when i get pissed i need to watch how i use my strength an that why do yall think --well those that know me when im pissed err yea-- theres atleast SONMETHING logical in
well my issue lol my uncle gets an ego at times an APPARENNTALLY if he leaves the tv on even tho he KNOWS i dont usially watch the tv he expects me tyo turn it off well i wasnt watchin in the first place soo i think it logical he knows when hees gonna leave he can ask if iom watchin then if not turn it off soo yea he thinks he can yell at me for !!!
then too before that APPASRENTALLY its illegal to NOT know when someones on the phone well he was over here a couple minutes ago the oven went off actually lol it wasnt well i didnt realise it was the oven right away an i THOUGHT he could get it clearly i expected too much huh? soo yea i was focused on my computer a heroes thing soo yea an EIRLIGHTER today he had some stupid fits over the vaccuming am yea i had ta remember ta watcvh my strength then soo yea yea i think im due ta punch the crt tv or SUMTHIN maby jus in with energy soo yea i jus need to remind myse;lf that he is as human as i appear to him kinda pathetic really but well why bother??
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| tarotgirl |
Thanksging BSI stay away from my family on holidaze cause they always turn into iddoits. Start drinking then fighting and wah lah ruined holidaze.Better to stay at home and have a peaceful holiday (i dont like thankgivin anyway). TG |
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| biyu |
lol i get like no choice lol i mean its not exactally like theyd seem to accept me if there seemed a sudden drastic change but last couple years no turkey fer me lol dont know whatill happen if/ewhen lol i ever move out--not in a place where i really can think bout movin out soo why bother? lol | ||||
| tarotgirl |
financial aid works wonders bi dont be so hard on self tho when is time for you to move on you willl.... TG | ||||
| tarotgirl |
hmmmAm I supposed to agree even if I dont so that people dont get all pissy? Am I suppposed to coddle you from real life? Why ask to be comforted in the middle of a fit? And why need to be comforted when is because someone told you that you cannot do what you want to anymore? Isnt that more of pouting cause someone took your toys away? Am I supposed to go "there there ...\???"It isnt enough they asked me to get outa bed to come talk and then vent thier frustration on me, get pissed cause I dont agree and act like a child. Children need spanking sometimes, I think this may be the time you do... |Sorry cant agree cannot bring my self to comfort you because your pouting, terrible of me I know but sadly it is me. TG |
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| biyu |
aww an lol my mom tryied the finatal aide thing something it was too hard fer her ta figure it out fer me soo yea im stuck where im not fully happy
plus i THOUHT itd be stuff at my level lol some was some way below --i loose intrest an FAST there an some above which would be better if the teacher used a danged book but lol guys whatcha expect? the lol of it is cept fer the online class where thus far the teacher has seemed totally awesome lol the one in person me an oyuther students it sounds have asked fer help an hees go figfure it out youreself i know i mentioned i kinda need morte hands on we launched word from the command line the next day back to the same id THINK when students bring up they need help AND mention there learning style the teacher would make some significant effort to help ESPECALLY when he dosent use a book --he told us to return the dam tyhing cause it wasnt a good resourse an ya can find all needed info online AND free soo yea i guess he aint ALL bad lol it see,ms he was thinkin of me an another student who use laptops when he picked the linux os we were gonna be using in class soo yea (ubuntu has out of the box wifi suppourt or the like it sounds fedora must not) so thats the class i wanna audit
ok old gripe need ta get my fat ass over it as fer the outher one tg keep an open mind ok? like you wouldnt huh? |
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| tarotgirl |
not usually at six am...we do try tho. and as for that sometimes we need to reach out in other directions. Beside I went to bed hearing bout it and woke up hearing bout it only thing changed was amount of energy they put into increased ten fold. and really I have been a boss too long I know work bs is work bs and that's where I feel it belongs at work, not at home or crawling into my bed at six am... TG | ||||
| tarotgirl |
I really think this has gone on far enough and is kinda stupid now.... Too much shakespere... | ||||
| biyu |
aww dont let it get too far with ya tg lol an lets just hope they learn from there mistakes too ok? or ifnot mistakes whatevers gooin on round them to cause this --not tryin ta say its inherantally bad | ||||
| Rev/Scout |
CrossroadsSometimes people bounce things off other people when they are at a crossroads in their lives. Sometimes all it takes is a kind word or a little moral support for that person to make the decisions that they are having to make.Sometimes decisions need to be made out of love, rather than out of the frustration that a job may bring. It often takes the insight of another to bring that person to the realization of that...a fresh and separate look at things, a new perspective, someone else who can step back and look at the whole picture. Sometimes we look for that in our partner. |
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| biyu |
there are things even i think all *should* be capable of im aware tho that tho i think they should that dosent mean they can or do
(oh an lol im online an bored need i say more? tho i seem ta bore easily lol its not really annoyin me that im so bored its jus im bored i wanna do somethin but dont know what so meh) |
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| tarotgirl |
I understand completely... | ||||
| biyu |
cant help thinkin huge ass somewhere akas a big "but........" lol | ||||
| biyu |
news aarrgghh lol i guess my moms still obsessed with the well theyve had some story apparentally a family someone had "treatable" diabetis or however its spelt the family went to prayr to cure the person not medics an they watched as the person died
to ME it feels like theyre trying to call that a "bad" family cause they trusted there faith insteada a often flawed medic system its like huh? WTFF?? (my way around a filter LOL) soo yea there proubly coulda been something done yea if the person say needed shugar then add it to there food enough to keep them ok keep them where they were ok im still learnin to read this body LOL http://www.620wtmj.com/news/local/35331139.html has the story i think --i looked thryu the siteb to find it ugh THATS enough news for me fer a month or so ugh i HATE the negativity of it whatchall think? i still think i respect there choice to pray tho yea actually on the "show" the omish were mentioned i think even omish could know of altering there diets some would they? i have no clue ok ill stfu here |
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| tarotgirl |
When I was Two.My mother shut both my hands in the car door one day; then a short time later I burned then badly on the oven door. We never went to Dr. she just bandaged me up. So they hurt and were swollen a lot. We have an African American woman who watched us and I remember being like 6 or 7 and her taking me to the faith healer, I remember he told her I was a golden child (whatever that meant). but I remember the fire and warmth as he healed me, I remember the pain and stiffness slipping away. After that I didnt have problems with my hands again till the last yr or so. This mans hands were of light and he showed me how it work at 6 yrs old. Anne and Pet showed me how to use it and share it with others...It does work....TG |
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| biyu |
aww that sounds awesome tg more reason not ta diiscredit faith huh? but this current systen an issue an it knows but dosent wanna admit it is | ||||
| tarotgirl |
lying by ommission of facts and maniplulationi recently discovered someone who I thought was honorable even if I didnt always agree with her, had sent out a pvt convo we had had. which is kinda silly to me but the most interesting part was that she chopped it up in order to make it look like I was saying something I was not. In fact I am assuming her intentions were deception from the get go. Which is really sad, I had respect for her even tho we don't agree on a lot of things but after finding out the extent she went to manipulate others within the group into believing something that was simply not true, i lost any I had. I am not ashamed of a single thing I said it was taken wrong and someones ego got scratched in the process ;not mine mind you.Me being me just walked away from it till they cooled off but after finding this out today I must say I am very glad i did. I don't want to put my faith in someone who doesn't speak truthfully regardless of their opinions. The manipulation equals an enormous lie to me...sad I thought for a second we might actually be able to work together but now I will not work with someone I cannot trust. that trust she will have to earn all over again and it will not be as easy as it was the first time. if i ever do trust them again it will always be in the back of my mind. I am torn right now because I feel strongly about all parties concerned but I will not compromise my integrity.... TG |
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| biyu |
aww tg my mood rightnow all i can really say is happens
--this would be one of those days its best to stay the away from me with how mad abn annoyied ive gotten funny rightnow it feels like im just buying into an outer illusion
soo anywho i need more sleep i KNOW it i didnt feel like i got enough sleep an my mom wakes me up with above ALL highpityched and annoying THEN she turns the molehill that is my mess into a mountain threatens to throw everything out i insist not she finally decides "fine ill take tommorra off cause you have school JUST so we can clean" shees like oc cleaning my mess is in ONE area i generally know whatys where an well APPARENTALLY its too much "" woyuld be embarassed to have someone in the house soo when THAT tatic didnt do much more then further piss me off she decided "fine kick her out and take MY laptop back" well the laptop in question was a GIFT soo i would think by wiscon state law its MINE an shees tryied kicking me out before i refuse shees made fake phone calls i know her tricks there all bull the point is i believe them at the time soo yea good thing its MY laptop an im still here soo yea i suggested like 15 min fer us to cool down if i can see fer the crap it is i can cool rather quickly if i feel threatened ill use those illusions make myself as i feel i need to be at the time its funny lol i dont see as lies till after i mean she knows how to make it sound like on the phone sounded likew someone comin over yet hees yet to be here hmm lie much? an she makes it sound she can just decide "whoop imma kick you out" WELL my understanding of human law 30 day notice soo legally she cant lol
oh THEN keep in mind shees verry in the physical well i mentioned i needed more sleep i mentioned that things are changes i even used the word "shift" soo yea AND theres a video mentions a coin that predates the cromagum era she asked if i even knew what a cromagum was i said early HUMAN (didnt emphasise human but yea) she said look in the mirrior had previously cpomplained bout people who think they know more then her --hmmm why would i not know more then her?? cause i dont yet have that matc degree? cause i dont have anyt degree above her? its HUMANS and those in the PHYSICAL plane that think papers mean ive known about indigos an been generally into metaphysics sence i was like 12 or 13 im now 19 all ages by HUMAN standards in PHYSICAL years soo i know a thing or 2 is my point i mightnot have spent years an years working on one specific thing or another but its an intrest its somethin i wanna learn bout its how i know the few things i do about myself ITS the proof i kinda allways had that im just not "like" most but lol a specal ed kid in like all regular classes i think its clear somethings different eh?
oh AND i kinda got mad at my laptop its been slow an generally strange today but i hope it knows that was just situational an i still love it jus when i get mad it KINDA can consume me (after like the first max 3rd i was calmer thought id finish sayin whats happened allready in the day tho an its only 1228p here soo yea long day an barely begun) |
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| tarotgirl |
wow bi I have never seen you bitch so much hope you feel better now | ||||
| biyu |
LOL really? like i said that kinda mood you DONT wanna catch me in --an i grow that much more like scout huh?  but yea after typin like 1/3 of it i was in a better mood had ta finish it so yalld know why i was in the mood in the first place
--chances are youll feel the bad mood or ill warn ya tip? lol have starry sign-on |
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| Rev/Scout |
See tg? lol!! even just typing it out helps. someone listening does too lol.   
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| tarotgirl |
duhwhy do you think I made this thread in the first place anne? |
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| biyu |
the bitching thing or was it tg? one of yall i know lol anywho yea i needed ta chill out i did alls well
not really a bitch should prolly be another thread but meh needing more sleep i semi-agree not a reason to miss class but if i cant be awake "enough" alert "enough" then what good am i to a class? all my attention will be on my computer soas to keep me up an the teacher WOULD notice something different with me --good thing after highschool im usted ta functioning on less --like 5 hours of sleep thru the day if im lucky an now im yelled at cause i need like a whole 12 hours they call it "redicolous" ive tryied tellin my mom things are happenin yall herd the result an well yea i think imma be stuck in my own world away from them fer what they call too long |
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| tarotgirl |
Gmail chopps your emails!!hey this one I gotta share, you know the chopped up logs that were spread around making some look how things were not??? The party who sent them out claims Gmail chopped them up independently. As in the things the boy said were taken out by the email server so only my responses were left. Is that a gas or what. I mean if you are ballsy enough to chop, chop well. and if you get busted ... don't blame the mail man!!!Or did you really think we were all stupid my sister? LMFFAO@U &UR LIES TG oopsi " " guess you ed up huh?
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| Rev/Scout |
Re: Gmail chopps your emails!!
Well I am sure it was as obvious to others as it was to me that a response usually FOLLOWS an instigating comment. A reaction usually FOLLOWS an action. The words you wrote were obviously not stand alone statements. I think it is time to put this to rest. It has taken too much energy already. If you 2 can't work together then I guess you can't. Rev/Scout |
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| tarotgirl |
oh is that how people work together anne? I guess momma didnt teach me that part.... | ||||
| biyu |
lol as i saw round and round LOL better one  literally laughing an ass off thats a funny one
soo yea she seems to think it right to place blame elsewhere im allmost tempted to bring things "closer to home" fer her but i dont feel like it asn could be her level meh i tryied went past caring an yea i still stand by what ive said i truly hope she sees an soon |
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| tarotgirl |
I kindaAm kinda torn, part of me wants to confront her directly in an open room with the rest of the group, ALL of the group. But the other part says why bother I am glad I cut her off, I didnt cuss at her but once called her an in fact, and I told her to off! but she chopped that one...maybe cause what she said b4 it had something to do with it.
I never wanted her silly bf he is a child. I find all completely rediculis. And I am amazed at the extent she will go to. |
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| biyu |
Typin on my phone comppy is updating now on topic i dont think it the most convential relationship but i dont wish to intefere in that relationship soo yea | ||||
| tarotgirl |
Huny I figure anne is right consider the source: i CAN get angry, I have a real problem with deseptions, lying and manipulation. I dont care for it one iota. The fact remains I am happy to discover this now instead of at a time when my life could have been in her hands. I am not the boss of anyone; that's God/dess' job. My job is to walk the path I have agreed to, as it is for all of us. Hope in the furture and dream and new way of life for humanity. I dont have to get angry and confront her and neither do you. she shadows every post, she knows she has been exposed. Hopefully others will see also, I am not going to let her problems become my problems...TG | ||||
| biyu |
true we are in these human forms thus we are to some level humans an we can fall into human cycles but lol thru it it seems itd be easyier if we remembered that this is a form an illusion its not really who we are soo yea if she chooses to fall into that cycle i wish her luck in coming out especally if shees gonna try to deter outhers from talking to her in her actions we are stronger as a whole and if some dont want that whole then theres nuthin i can do (i know some have seen how protective i can when it comes to those i care about but even i realise in the end its there choice)
an lol i dont really seem to get mad much anymore soo that helps ill get sick of stuff shure an ill say it even she knows ill say maby not rightaway but i WILL say now lol  can we leave it to rot in peace? or do we wanna disecct it an see how stinky it gets?
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| tarotgirl |
LMAO let it rott it already stinks... | ||||
| Rev/Scout |
I agree with ya both. It is already stinky and old even.
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| biyu |
yea thought oh!
 AND i jus learned of  today soo we have dead horses ducks an pandas (you complain its att to scout tg? heres a chance lol) someone on the dead duck page said
soo yea funny huh? im ASSUMING they mean kitty as is my intent (was lookin fer a link with well THOUSANDS of them but meh cant find it) oh i feel a need ta say those that dont know da (deviantart where i get most of my icons from an where the dead horse duck an panda things come from) uses different codes like say i wanted to create my icon here but i were there itd be :iconbiyu: here its
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| biyu |
here! now i can reply!! LOL had ta log-in cause i switched to opera cause firefox was havin one of its bitch fits LOL soo yea
new complaint/bitch is it me or is it "any reason to be pissed" day reason i ask is my moms like madder then usial (re-adjusted seems to help with knot on my back) shees STILL mad bout the shoveling seriously simple dont say youre gonna "force" me an show some kindness ESPECALLY when you HAVE a snowblower (oh i left that out huh? yea it dosent allways work funny its a craftsman too) soo yea then apparentally tho i went to sleep ohh WAY the before midghnight lastnight an was still up late its MY fault she was late fer work when the whole family knows i like to sleep in --speaking tonight i need ta turn off my phone an maby unplug the house phone? maby jus keep it the away from me cause i plan on sleepin till like 3 or 4 pm tomorra dos it mean i will? nope but hopefully i can get a RESTFULL nights sleep tho lastnights was better then night before soo yea
oh AND well i sit in the passanger seat there were papers in the visor thing i wanted to put the visor down i asked boyut the glovebox nope illegal like anything i thought of SHE didnt want then she complained it was MY fault she had to be blinded between sun an ice when she KNOWS i sit there its like "oh really??" tho the car is only a few months old an its had its first oil change oh AND i was right!! lol it had a bad stereo didnt text on fm but did on xm then we were gonna go to this chinese resturant (lately my meal has been 1 plate 3 bowls of egg drop soup an a few desserts) some reason or another my "attitude" pissed her off err her=my mom i was trying to be kind an try to figure how so solve the issue be HELPFULL soo yea THEN we went looking fer a spot outside the resturant any we saw were "too far" uhh just down a CITY block so she got pissed was gonna jus drop me off at school early i asked about webbs she said I was beein picky that I wanted something good which shure i did want somethin good but you think if the one beeing accused of was the one giving the ideal itd work? so we eventually went to webbs that was okish cept she was STILL mad while we were there soo yea my day thus far i even comjmented bout putting music on but itd get her even more mad THINKIN itd help her chill out she well classic case of "dont give a " in my experience
hmm bits remind of that stinky ole dead horse? shure did me whilr typing an yea tg im chill while typing i had to near literally shove her crap away from me while we were at webbs |
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| biyu |
great MORE to add i audited one of my classes WELL guess bitchy didnt like that thats a class i was having a hard time with teacher did NOT wanna teach just tequella jokes an OH YEA!!! no book!!! he told us to RETURN the book if we had it then didnt teach much expected us to find stufff on our own i went upto him said i needed more hands on we launched word from the command line an it ended there with more hands on i specifically went to an asked i MADE AN EFFORT soo yea then i asked about a tutor an he seemed to help me some there but once we got intyo linux i became stuck agin partly cause i had no computer i could use daily WITH linux on an do the stuff i dont know well about dual booting an i dont wanna try it on my baby who ive been configuring sence ohh like febuary (oh id say ive been configging my sapos sence 02 more like dealin with it tho) soo yea now bitchy err my mom is pissed cause i DID audit the class an i ghuess she wants me to drop the online class but uhh online i NEVER see the teacher literally tho there is contact info soo yea
an i SEEM to remember a huge "graphic arts or tech suppourt" deal thingie what won it was tech suppourt was at south graphics is ONLY downtown an tech made more little bit but not much oh AND im usted ta beein in specal ed yea excuses meh i know i told one of my teachers it she err my mom DIDNT WANT me to sign-up fer the specal ed stuff |
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| tarotgirl |
welcome to real world biyu child!!! College is not considered special edd. | ||||
| biyu |
yea i know think tho that she woulda thought of it tho? i mean i ALLWAYS had the option to take my assessments in the specal ed room to have them read to me i like never used it but it was sttill an option i could like ALLWAYS take whatever time i needed/wanted fer assignments some teachers gave a deadline then id be marked late but i would still get points for it oh AND the kicker? i was in ALL regular classes soo hmm i wonder sound like an indigo they didnt know what to do with? LOL well i know one teacher to watch out fer now an hopefully i can talk my mom into the full schedule i had planned like the 2nd week i tryied findin out if i could switch the online to in person none at the campus i an kinda stuck at soo cant say i didnt try with that class i shoulda dropped it right then BUT "noo youll loose insurance" an yea well it SOUNDS like just cause ive auted this ONE class ive lost my insurance ugh i doubt ill get hurt unless theres something i need to learn from it i dont remember ever having a broken bone shure i brused my ancle DURING PACERS soo yea (there these things you go back an forth well THAT too i usially picked the section thingie with yoga got the same teacher she is awesome i would get the 5 or 7 i could get most were dooin 20 or 30 or more then walk back an forth kinda ish occasionally try dooin one at current speed aka more/less running the one i hurt myself was a fer the heack of it i was dooin a turn oh then too lol i kinda had to get out of the way my clever way? i rooled as i couldnyt really use my foot ancle hurt like HELL soo yea everything was sifuated tho it was winter hmm musta been 04ish if my uncle got his carolla in 05 an i REMEMBER him pickin me up in the truck i had him pull up cause the curb would make it that muck easyier i bet the teacher can look back an laugh tho i was kinda a baby about it i know im kinda laughing ancles still semi-inflamed like2%ish id guess it will not be like the outher within the month id guess --well really i wanna say never but id hate to say that especally knowing whats happened even sence the start of july soo im puttin at unlikely ti be soon tho it dosent hurt)
oh an while were on my pains LOL also factors in my temper which really i still think i was atleast semi-right in my thoughts soo i decided to play duck hunt (yea i have a working nes so what? i LOVE it need more gun games jus hogans alley+pissed=shooting innocents NEED duck hunt) the gun wasnt where i KNEW i had it the day before i look around the area not where i looked i know we have 2 cats i cheaked logical places in the area didnt find it soo i decide to call my mom i called her 16 times EACH went to voice mail (not 1 ring not answering NOO i wait fer voicemail--3 rings if phones not on usially then voicemail) she didnt answer soo i got a bit pissed some reason i punched the tv dont remember why but i did then LOOKIE i found my zapper immadetaly there after huh? so if i mention punchin the tv chancs are its from that now if youre wondering if i got a bruse yea i did the next mornin--this was nightish-- but ytho it hurt like a bitch meh let it censor tho it did (ok prolly exaggeratin) i managed to work it to ohh like gone ifnot gone within like 2 hours of gettin up an findin out it was there my trick? make it hurt i THINK a bruse is formed by a pooling if the blood maby makin crap up meh anywho thats what i did made it hurt an the like lol the sevirtity? well 2 of my nuckles not as prominate as outher 2 it looked like i had 3 not 4 nuckles
an you see why im narcy bout having my phone ON me an on now?? NOT the first nor the last time ive called her about a dozen times to hear "you have reached an automatic message system phone-number is not avalable now to page this person press 5 now or you may leave a message after the tone" about the "have" ive hungup i think thats the full version i use custom ones with my voice tho an i change them every few months or so last one was OVER a year old thought was changed about april oh an lol im past due fer a new ringtone soo yea i should stfu meh jus annoys me when i make an EFFORT to be reachable an another there phone is usially dead if there one of the 2 people i call the most WHAT GOOD DOS IT DO??? ive actually called my uncle sayin i couldnt get ahold of her i kinda hope he atleast tells her to CHARGE HER PHONE oh THEN they get mad when i break phones uhh you think its easy on someone with anger issues to have to call someone 16+times just fer a 3 min convo i mean REALLY??? if we didnt have unlimited mobile to mobile chances are weed be like OURT of muney from how many times id try to call her i just hope target gets better soon (when the pick-n-save by our house was first built it was iffy oin reception but in time it got better soo yea hopin target dos too) oh!! speaking lol i can kinda boost my phone signal energy or sumthin dont *fully* know how i do it but if i want to i can i usially do it at target if i need to call someone me an my mom have the EXACT same model phone my uncle too hees had his like a week longer then weve had ours yet IM the one expected to know how tio change a ringtone oh AND the user manual "babys first phone" ugh gimmie a few technical things somethin i have ta look up well that was the first i looked at an needlessly to sauy im prolly not lookin at another fer awhile soo yea i play around an i learn ok ill stfu now general rantin fer the most part old complaints some funny memories |
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| tarotgirl |
LMAO @ biyu. if you called me 16 times you would be so in trouble. 2 times is enough! | ||||
| biyu |
if you ANSWERED the first time id have no need for the outher 15 times
an yesterday? i tryied callin my mom STRAIGHT to voicemail its like how many phones must i break to prove the point? im kinda nuts bout having my phone on me an charged i jus want the same from her i mean cell phones are so people are easyier to contact right? what good do they do dead? yea LOL its pathetic huh? meh i have insurance on my plan an they DONT make my phone anymore soo IF i break it i would get a new one hmm maby an iphone? required media plan on it HAH! i have the media plan now i can text amewrican numbers think iuts covered i think i can even iom on my phone tho why bother? texting hah! lol an unlimited downloads ahh im ion heaven---get bored? phone browser to mobilerated.com free games fer me outhers mat get charged fer downloading them |
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| biyu |
ok im back to "oh REALLY??" reason being my mom gave me a gift 1 month 1 at a time unlimited netflicks rental thingie WELL i THOUGHT it said that she would be at fault if i didnt return a movie--i plan on dooin att watch on computer ones not actually really renting any-- well turns out a credit card was needed i showed her she punched in her well its a card of herd i like they nolonger make like them soo yea kinda suprised you need it for a GIFT but meh beats searching youtube or the wires for indie films like LOL indigo | ||||
| tarotgirl |
so many things out there that effect us in so many ways i find it hard to think at times.
so why bother. |
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| biyu |
LOL dont wanna live in auto-pilot tho do ya? i doubt itd do anythin to remotely "help" my memory LOL soo yea i think there are times thought isnt that good well in the sence we dont want condfused people i read some agreement to join some forum well it was laced with thats the ONLY one im reading soo yea
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| biyu |
ok im back to a kinda what the kinda mood thing eirlighter someone in indigo INSIDSTED on knowing my age said couldnt sleep withought knowing well i called bull on it then went all you whore stuff on me an yea so i pasted the convo onto indigo main chat then that one posted ALTERED logs of stuff soo yea then someone put me on ignore so i got irked even moreso switched to biyu was STILL on ignore it seemed dragged meaning in did some spamming helped me too little talked to someone of it they even said THEY woulda been irked from it soo yea that talk chilled that from me i jus dont get why they think age is SOO important
then later i talk to one of my friends he mentions some gathering with friends i mention that i never get the invite even fer such things (i mean im open an honest with them allways was soo yea its like they dont even care enough to alert or that i mean chances are i couldnt go anywho but make some effort show you care) soo yea then he demands i change things about me --most of them have faded or arent as noticable soo i asked him making people aware ive felt things an that i got stubbourn about it i KNOW i did (when atleastt once youve had to essientally lock up like a while leg so you could walk withought too much pain yea things like that will be mentioned) he REFUSED or dang near to even alert them of it what the makes it fair to demand someone change so they can join there friends an there are people that need to be "convinced" that the one person will be ok there ESPECALLY when it seem there will be litrtle to benefit the one allegadally changing? ( i wanna cry even more) soo yea what good is there in gooin to be with my friends when ill need to hide what im feeling? hide who it is i am? they SHOULD be my friends they SHOULD be the ones i trust with my life right now it feels like theres only really one person thats THERE an another thats really close then many outhers who i really trust an sadly i dont think any are from the group that i claim as my "friends" its those i KNOW i love those id do next to anything to defend manyy even if it hurt me 1 definately even if it KILLED me
soo yea i mentioned that if they need to be convinced maby there not worth my time or the like then we got to talking hid shadow side seemed to come out fer a sec he recognised it as a demon but it faded i mentioned was likely shadow side was like out to be healed soo yea oh an he i guess mooched some energy from me to take himself yup actually round then his shadow came out said he should have sucked me dry jus cause he could soo i said i prolly could kill him with one of my stars --i knoew one with no intent hurt the one i sent it to soo figure i coiuld do a negative intent easily as i could a posative one i jus CHOOSE nott to do the negative we went back an forth he wanted to test a thery so i sent him an orb see what happens maby itill knock him to his sences ugh im jus having a fit over a huge load of but yea
back to the whole is it really fair to require someont to change who they ARE when noones gonna do i mean if i agree to the last bit thats likely left then i wanna know ill alspo feel comfortable enough that i can share what it is im feeling i know with starry an scout atkleasty i can share it i feel comfortable enough with lightnin an a few outhers too (sounds bad but i trust them too is the bottom line) these ones tho they should be my friends still if they want me to just reject it im gonna have to refuse to i mean these gifts they ARE part of me why force me to ditch that especally even just to look like i fit in soo yea
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| Rev/Scout |
I hear ya biyu. It is very hard to deny who we really are, even if it is to fit in. Gifts are just that, gifts. They were meant for sharing, not suppressing. If your friends are really your friends they will accept you for who you are and love you for being you. I know a few of us that do.  
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| biyu |
aww thanks i THOUGHT they did but well i think i need to send you a log fer you to better understand he seems to think ive changed AND im still the same yea back to amnother reason he EARNED the wholr 455h013 thing soo yea i think even tho i WAS stubbourn (i can agree to seem calmer ok BOT i want them atleast aware of my gifts of the facty i feel stuff i wanna be able to know if i feel somethion i can talk about it an yea i think it fair i mean i DONT wanna suppress myself i kinda do at school while im in class tho i may talk bout it wityh those online i wont with the class unless another brings it up)
i do admit i should do more for that but it seems in how he was "asking" --demanding morelike-- that would prolly be better fer now i mean we are talkin bout the guy i wel;l fell for in highschool evenm then i was honest bout ohh like everythin |
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| Star Skye |
biyu, i hear you loud and clear on the friends and changing and not being called to join occasions and like that. but i have found it really isnt worth it sometimes. if they cant accept you as you are, then them. the problem with you is in their heads, and it has NOTHING to do with the actual you. so let it go and let them have their fits and prejudices while we party it up!
we love you biyu and you get me more than most ppl for which i am sincerely thankful for. |
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| Star Skye |
also bi, this thing about the gifts can really freak ppl out as well as most believe it is sci-fi or fantasy. take it slow. you know your truth and there is no need to impose it on others if they want to be blind. my best friend and i recently broke up b/c one of the things she hated was that i would know when something was up with her before she told me and when she didnt want me to know. i cant explain that of course she wants me to know, b/c her soul is reaching out to mine, screaming. so i cut off the link, and then a whole bunch of things developed, and we ended up not being friends anymore. and bi, i had no attachments, i didnt NEED her for anything. she was someone i simply chose to share my life with and then we both made the decision to not do that anymore, and that was fine.
if they can't appreciate you or see the gifts in the right context, bi, then really, they are not someone you can be your most divine self with. i have found that i don;t want or need someone to understand, just accept. to trust me with what i am, and trust them. and that is ok. it is all a choice bi, i wonderful chosen experience, and it is ok. it always is. so keep your chin up, and keep sharing what you want to. i have found that i am a certain part of me with some ppl, and another with others. don;t expect every situation to demand the same of you. flow with the tide. and LOVE yourself, bi, enough to stand in your truth and keep your peace. much love and balance, star. |
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| biyu |
you realise few could prolly get that same reaction outta nme as what you jus said did? an the 3 that youve met they all know of my gifgts theres another me an him would well 2 outhers in this me an him would be at lunch he would have a number fer me to guess an the 3rd would try to throw me off well i was usially right we got bored it came up was a way to test was fun i didnt wanna prove anything actually ok time fer inityals k was sendin s was tryin ta toss me off i know atleast onvce k said seemed like something i wasnt sayin i couldnt think of it i told him that i cant think of what itd be or that an yea it was k who i was hanging with when the name kitrina popped into my head i thought was girl an related to him but later i fergot all about it an WHAM! it happened soo yea you know j t an n an it was t to kinda start that i asked j he said that he didnt know an reallyu i guess i jus kinda figure yea theryve met n has showed intrest in havin me there when we were in highschool an JUST cause theres literally a 2% chance of me beein able to go dos that make it right to not even bother asking me? if yall are gonna meet fine if yall dont want me there FINE but then DIONT ESSIENTALLY RUB IT IN MY FACE (i only look mad really im gettin closer to cryion agin)
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| biyu |
an i love yall too yall like literally ARE my sanity at times i just wish they could understand they could make SOME effort i mean i know there will be the outcasts but really a group OF outcasts? are outcasts really needed THERE too?
oh an s well i was in foods with him i taught him a few things about cookin we did a LOT of baking an desserts that was fun i think they ALL know how good my cooking is an i think they woyuld know ask me to bring somethin chances are i will an itill be good too i know no jello or oranges fer j think n muight hasve an allergy need ta figure everyone elses soo yea an once i knew THAT would factor too an id prolly do healthyier too but hey TYHEY DONT SEEM TO CARE soo why the should i???
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| biyu |
ok screwv this!! the log where it all started msn log soo date time from to annoyin i KJNOW but yall will get usted ta it IF you decide to read it
12/27/2008 10:38:38 PM marie Tony hey 12/27/2008 10:39:25 PM Tony marie hello 12/27/2008 10:42:37 PM marie Tony whats up? 12/27/2008 10:43:06 PM Tony marie stuff.... nothing much 12/27/2008 10:43:18 PM marie Tony whatcha hidin? 12/27/2008 10:43:34 PM Tony marie nothing, why? 12/27/2008 10:43:59 PM Tony marie I'm on he computer talking to people 12/27/2008 10:44:23 PM Tony marie I mean, I went to a party earlier, but that's it 12/27/2008 10:45:19 PM marie Tony oh fun 12/27/2008 10:45:20 PM Tony marie everyone was there! including nicole and zaak 12/27/2008 10:45:51 PM marie Tony an not me huh? 12/27/2008 10:46:02 PM marie Tony i BNEVER get the invites huh? 12/27/2008 10:46:33 PM Tony marie it was at sean's house and steph was there, so if you would have been there you and steph would have killed each other.... plus riece doesn't like you.... 12/27/2008 10:47:04 PM marie Tony rece can deal an why would you think weed kill eachouther? 12/27/2008 10:47:24 PM Tony marie if not each other, then steph would have killed you 12/27/2008 10:47:27 PM marie Tony i mighghta strangled her from hugs but outherwise prolly not 12/27/2008 10:47:33 PM marie Tony why? 12/27/2008 10:50:19 PM Tony marie she hates you.... with a passion..... people change..... I've even changed... YOU'VE even changed..... but she just doesn't like anything about you..... and fyi... you aren't even a little bit country unless you grew up there...... not practically, but DID grow up there..... listening to the music doesn't make you country 12/27/2008 10:51:01 PM Tony marie you are a city girl... that's it 12/27/2008 10:51:05 PM marie Tony uhh you realise i listen to christain music more now 12/27/2008 10:54:46 PM marie Tony ? 12/27/2008 10:54:50 PM Tony marie well... then stop talking with that southern drawl........ it's annoying..... there are a few things that NOBODY apreciates.....like that, and the laughing REALLY loud.... and well.... doing whatever you want without even thinking about what other people think.... you may have gotten rid of your emotions, but I didn't, and my CHOICE is to not to, so deak with the fact that your friends are embarassed by the stuff you do and fix it!!! 12/27/2008 10:55:20 PM Tony marie deal* 12/27/2008 10:55:46 PM Tony marie why are you so close minded?! 12/27/2008 10:55:46 PM marie Tony youre stuck in the past 12/27/2008 10:56:08 PM marie Tony you still look at who i was not who i am 12/27/2008 10:58:11 PM Tony marie prove to me, that you can be presentable and MAYBE I will convince everyone that you can come to our get togethers... because we only allow people that everyone likes.... I got everyone to like steph... now are you going to do this for me, so I can convince everyone that you are part of the group? 12/27/2008 10:58:36 PM marie Tony you know all that posativity you feel in me? think one withought emotions could REALLY feel muchless live that? 12/27/2008 10:59:04 PM Tony marie you have no embarassment? 12/27/2008 10:59:18 PM Tony marie !?* 12/27/2008 10:59:23 PM marie Tony if they need convincing then maby i shoulddnt be part of them 12/27/2008 10:59:52 PM Tony marie fine then! 12/27/2008 11:00:11 PM marie Tony youre right i dpont get embarassed you know why? i feel its meaningless an well useless what good dos it really do? 12/27/2008 11:00:49 PM Tony marie other people do though!!!! feel sypathy for them!!! not everyone can get rid of it!!!! 12/27/2008 11:00:49 PM marie Tony are you jus gonna stop beein my friend now cause i choose to be stubbpourn on something? 12/27/2008 11:01:20 PM Tony marie no I'm not, but everyone else is another story 12/27/2008 11:01:55 PM marie Tony uhh ive feelt actual physical pain so bad i had to lock up my knee an anckle just to walk they feel no sympathy for the physical pain ive felt 12/27/2008 11:03:18 PM Tony marie why!!! why can't you just behave!!! why are you so stubborn!!! 12/27/2008 11:03:26 PM marie Tony ill bet they really know little bout physical forms of empathy yet im expected to thionk about outhers who arent required to think of me what sence dos that make? 12/27/2008 11:03:43 PM marie Tony im tryint to prove a point 12/27/2008 11:04:20 PM Tony marie why!!! nobody is going to get it!! 12/27/2008 11:04:44 PM marie Tony will they even try? 12/27/2008 11:05:14 PM Tony marie no!!! 12/27/2008 11:05:41 PM Tony marie they think that this is all crazy!! don't force things upon people!! 12/27/2008 11:06:20 PM Tony marie oh !!!
12/27/2008 11:06:33 PM Tony marie b ,?K: >r97t8pp 12/27/2008 11:06:33 PM Tony marie []\ 12/27/2008 11:06:36 PM Tony marie ] 12/27/2008 11:06:39 PM marie Tony really youre expecting more of me then you do them you seem to think its fair to bash me when there ok as they are they fer the most part know im gifted they know im open about it an really i think its if youre gonna expect stuff pof me then they can AT LEAST be aware of things of me an if i feel something then ok 12/27/2008 11:07:21 PM Tony marie ok I fixed it 12/27/2008 11:07:45 PM marie Tony im NOT forcing them i just want them aware heack maby i could try somethin with one of my gifts turn the stars an orbss an maby heal them 12/27/2008 11:07:57 PM marie Tony fixed WHAT? 12/27/2008 11:08:24 PM Tony marie feel funny \_/ 12/27/2008 11:08:39 PM marie Tony huh? 12/27/2008 11:08:55 PM Tony marie feeling.... tired... 12/27/2008 11:09:15 PM marie Tony why? too much diiscussion? 12/27/2008 11:09:31 PM marie Tony too much stoubbourn freak fer ya? 12/27/2008 11:09:31 PM Tony marie no you.... I feel wide awake now.... 12/27/2008 11:09:42 PM marie Tony what? 12/27/2008 11:10:12 PM Tony marie thanks for the energy! god you have a lot.... 12/27/2008 11:10:24 PM marie Tony what did you do? 12/27/2008 11:10:44 PM Tony marie I just drained a bit of your energy... you were getting on my nervews 12/27/2008 11:10:54 PM marie Tony why was that? 12/27/2008 11:11:08 PM Tony marie because I was getting tired 12/27/2008 11:11:12 PM marie Tony an yea i know ive alot of energy comes with beein me 12/27/2008 11:11:50 PM Tony marie I was GOING to suck you dry.... but I would have to make direct contact for that..... 12/27/2008 11:12:17 PM Tony marie ..... 12/27/2008 11:12:17 PM marie Tony why siuck me dry? 12/27/2008 11:12:31 PM Tony marie ....... 12/27/2008 11:12:53 PM marie Tony why even leech in the first place? i mean i can understand a wake-up but outherwise whjy? 12/27/2008 11:13:16 PM Tony marie because I can... why else? 12/27/2008 11:13:35 PM marie Tony so? 12/27/2008 11:14:04 PM marie Tony i could send out a star sole intent ti kill you i COULD dfos that make it right? 12/27/2008 11:14:54 PM Tony marie do it.... I'm more powerful than you anyway...... 12/27/2008 11:15:09 PM marie Tony you seem to know how much energy i have soo you must have some understanding what im capable of 12/27/2008 11:15:17 PM marie Tony whys that? 12/27/2008 11:15:30 PM Tony marie a lot.... but not as much as me 12/27/2008 11:15:33 PM marie Tony why do you need to be more powerfull? 12/27/2008 11:16:47 PM Tony marie to take charge, why else.... the rightful throne in this world..... I have been ploting for years..... I could care less of this human race.... they are all idiots based on "apearance" anyway 12/27/2008 11:17:09 PM Tony marie hehehe 12/27/2008 11:17:36 PM marie Tony did you choose to go back to the negativity? 12/27/2008 11:17:39 PM marie Shino why? 12/27/2008 11:18:56 PM Shino marie why? WHY! because now that I have unlocked myself with positive energy, I now I can........ 12/27/2008 11:19:25 PM marie Shino there was a reason it was what was needed 12/27/2008 11:19:26 PM Shino marie ok.... that was weird..... I turned back to negative and then back to positive 12/27/2008 11:20:00 PM marie Shino uhh need i say it may seem like a battle fer awhile? 12/27/2008 11:20:00 PM Shino marie that was really weird 12/27/2008 11:20:11 PM marie Shino uhh name look 12/27/2008 11:20:20 PM Shino marie NOW YOU TELL ME!!!!!!! 12/27/2008 11:20:26 PM Shino marie I know I know!!!! 12/27/2008 11:20:37 PM Shino marie I said it!!! 12/27/2008 11:21:14 PM Shino marie but I just fluctuated between demon and angel!! tell me what's going on!!!!!1 12/27/2008 11:21:59 PM Tony marie that was me.... dark me.... not some demon.... but me..... 12/27/2008 11:22:47 PM Tony marie I just looked at my cat and BAM back to positive 12/27/2008 11:22:53 PM marie Tony youre shadow is surfacing for healing huh? 12/27/2008 11:23:18 PM marie Tony it needs to heal huh? help it to 12/27/2008 11:24:22 PM Tony marie I think that if you try to do something with someone, it will have no effect.... because they unconciously but up a shield..... 12/27/2008 11:24:44 PM Tony marie if your going to try something on me... don't give me warning first 12/27/2008 11:25:12 PM marie Tony uhh you would be giving youreself the warning 12/27/2008 11:26:17 PM Tony marie no I wouldn't! some choices are made i the unconsious mind, and those I have no control over.... so please just do it.... 12/27/2008 11:27:15 PM Tony marie I've gotta go 12/27/2008 11:27:25 PM marie Tony aww youll notice im intentionally beein stubbourn i know it i can do that i was intentionally dooin it i AM stoubbourn at times --1 persons name was changed as you prolly know him by that anywho |
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| biyu |
great MORE ugh the one on inmdigo that iggyied me fer posting logs well i went there san the bitch was there soo i wantedf her to understand what i was thinkin why i did that didnt reply to me ONCE of it an i got irked then some still tryied semi-calmly turns out the bitch ignored me i asked zaakie to go inthere an try to getr her to listen to me well im thinmkin that gem needs to get shatytered soo yea
i was talkin to some yesterday i think? meh i posted logs on the main of indigo then they tryied claiming i had altered the logs when i didnt it was all how old are you the ass DIDNT once respond to my what or why dios it matter soo yea (oh started ass askinj me asl) well gem put me on ignore fer that today i try to explain the reasoning not once was i addressed fer what i said of it just put on iggy it seems i asked a few tinmes i made an EFFORT to explain why i did what i did still gem didnt seem to care soo yea
it SEEMS like i was still judged fer having posted the loh and i was trying to explain WHY the it was that i did that i tryied i really did ill admit i maty not have used the best methods i still tryied still made an effort an well there were quite a few tinmes within these last few months i coulda EASILY judged MANY based on a single thing judged them as unkind unwantyed as negative for some reason or another but i choose not to i often had to make the ciontious choice i guess gem aint where i am but i guess i thiought trying to explain the reasoning would help her underrstand guess that was too much to expect huh?
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| Star Skye |
biyu, don't go places that might get your ire up. chillax, sit back, relax. go places, do things that you love and forget about trying to help ppl that don;t want to be helped or that don't want to listen and understand. just let it go, biyu. the more you want, the less you allow yourself to have. right now, when it is the end of the year, and a new one is beginning, is a time to reflect and see what's up with one's self and emotions. it is not a time to be outward, but inward. maybe that is why you are getting so many negative reactions from the ppl around you. they are telling you "what are you doing out here?! you should be by yourself for now to figure your stuff out. so i am going to be a bitch or an ass so you stop trying to be outside and go within for your answers." the ppl we don;t like and what we don;t like about them are often our greatest teachers, remember that bi. and let it all go. stop wanting for ppl to understand when they don;t want or when they aren't ready to. or you'll drive yourself crazy.
i love you girl. byes. much love and balance. |
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| biyu |
aww thanks much starry tho the funny part if you wanna see it that way is i truly try everything i can to be as honest as i can you know that an i think its been shown here acouple times i cant say im 100% honest 100% of the time but i try to be even over the 50 marks on both an as is human nature it seems at times to lie and decieve to show youre better or more then you are i try to see that atleast within myself whever i can i mean part on indigo was switching my perspective an it was figured to be me i didnt do more then switch so it looked like i was a friend i didnt change from my "normal" accent --watch out southern could indicate fiery mood LOL-- an i didnt change bout how i change if i WANTED to really pull it off i coulda done more (oh i can seem skizo it seems few really know much my friends or LOL those above mentioned know bout that i dont know why thats so easy i dont think i use it that often to MOST they should need an effort soo yea another jus "is" thing i guess)
dont mind more then yall wanna kinda thinkin outloud think gemini in me showing thru |
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| biyu |
a gripe for the gripe thread? LOL
well as a few of yall prolly know itunes hasnt been workin fer me fer awhile an i know that last time i was led to hp an microshaft didnt want a SINGLE thing to do with helpingg me--got pissed an hung up on them 2x threw my cell too sadly didnt break it but meh soo sence i have the itunes thing an my cddriive has needed me to use cmd to do with it soo yea i know im naturally more a geek then some people --like my uncle canty copy-paste or multiselect withought help both things i think you shoyuld learn in computers 100 even before 101 stuff but meh thats just me-- soo sence ive been in 1 semester of tech suppourt at matc i kinda expect these tech suppourt people to KNOW something time an time agin they prove they know less then me
marie zymbotica : 2 issues 1 itunes requires a re-boot comppy has been re-booted lasttime i had an issue with it it came to contact hp an 2 gui sais unburned unformated disk in drive cmd sais theres stuff there i wanna know why [An agent will be with you shortly.] [You are now chatting with Abdullah .] Abdullah : Hello Marie.Abdullah : Welcome to HP Total Care. marie zymbotica : hey Abdullah : How are you doing? marie zymbotica : well i CANT listen to my fave st6ation cause of itunes an its been issues an issues with this compouter it seems marie zymbotica : plus i thought i came fer tech suppourt if i wanna chat any of my like 10+imming accounts can porovide Abdullah : I regret the inconvience caused. marie zymbotica : really? Abdullah : I understand that the Audio is not comming after installing the iTunes. Am I correct? marie zymbotica : well think you could help? i think ive proven im semi-geeky marie zymbotica : on the itunes you ARE making up
marie zymbotica : i had itunes working in here a long while ago this computer installed vista sp1 that with my look i had to uninstall sp1 sence then itunes has been saying the computer needs to be re-booted its been re-bootyed ATLEAST a dozen times sence that started
marie zymbotica : ive tryioed iuninstalling and re-installing itunes it wouldnt uninstall NEEDED to re-boot Abdullah : Thank you for providing me the additional information. Abdullah : May I know the whether the iTunes which is installed in the Notebook is latest or oldest one. Abdullah : Because the older version of iTunes has issues with Windows Vista. marie zymbotica : it SHOULD be the newest i dfid get from the site an install that but whatever was there before didnt uninstall soo could be components of both marie zymbotica : the itunes is even set to auto-update Abdullah : Alright. marie zymbotica : any thoughtas? or jus re-format the computer?marie zymbotica : an if youre gonna giveup on the itunes then i wanna know boiut the cddrive Abdullah : Could I place you on hold for about 2-3 minutes while I check the information for you? marie zymbotica : whynot? Abdullah : Thank you. marie zymbotica : swell im listenin to good music an oh lookie thru my computers speakkers firefox AND opera do audio on youtube an the like jus fine soo im pretty shure theres NO audio end issue Abdullah : Thank you for your valueable time and patience. Abdullah : In order to isolate the issue we need to reformate the Notebook. marie zymbotica : uhh i think i need to know where the itunes directory is so i can delete it marie zymbotica : ive had this computer sence feb 11th like the whole time in some way or another ive been specal configging it for mer i JUST got my mac theme re-applyied Abdullah : I understand your concern. Abdullah : I understand that you want to uninstall the iTunes. marie zymbotica : really? you DO? this computer may have an os i hate but even this like a;ll my outher computers has taken a LOT of abuse--aka running too much at once sorta abuse-- of those computers most are hp towers soo i figured the laptops had ta be decent an this outperforms my best tower marie zymbotica : and there ios no "the" its jus itunes Abdullah : Marie, I am sorry to inform you that as we don't have much information about the iTunes, I kindly request you to contact the Apple.com who provides the iTunes application. They may be able to assist you better. marie zymbotica : well if youre done on itunes why would ther cddrive the gui read unburned an unformatted disk when cmd shows theres stuff there? i had t0o use cmd to install spore which i got fer x-mas had ta dfo it 4 times actually as an update with spore an they havent done soo i had ta uninstall it
marie zymbotica : --as fer side info when this computer was jus 10 days old i called apple they said microshaft who thru tonnes an said hp hp eventually said microshaft who REFUSED to help an it FINALLY authporised when i took it to the geek squad i had been workin on that thiong on an off fer like 3 days BEFORE i called
marie zymbotica : --im kinda gettin tired of alla this waitin Abdullah : I really understand you are getting tired of all the issue. Abdullah : I recommend you to Restore the Notebook to Factory Settings to get ride of all this issues. marie zymbotica : i REFUSE to do that you dont know HOW teweaked this computer is marie zymbotica : an i did that over amillion times with my sapos it NEVER fixed it there was a point fer like a week i was whiping that sapos DAILY marie zymbotica : --syi sapos is an 02 xp a hp AND my SINLGE worst computer Abdullah : Please let me know the exact issue with the CD/DVD drive so that I can assist you better. marie zymbotica : i allready said marie zymbotica : well if youre done on itunes why would ther cddrive the gui read unburned an unformatted disk when cmd shows theres stuff there? i had t0o use cmd to install spore which i got fer x-mas had ta dfo it 4 times actually as an update with spore an they havent done soo i had ta uninstall it
marie zymbotica : or do you not understand geek? Abdullah : I did not get you clearly. marie zymbotica : where are you confused? marie zymbotica : all i know an all my more geeky friends know say that the gui shiould say the SAME thing that cmd shows Abdullah : I am sorry that I unable to understand your language. marie zymbotica : its simple geek marie zymbotica : io was in my local colledge it tech suppourt ptrogrram oh look youre marie zymbotica : giving tech suppourt marie zymbotica : soo id FIGURE youd understand the terms i was taught Abdullah : The DVD which is showing the data in the Command prompt not in the DVD. And we can see the data in cmd but we cannot access the data from the DVD as the data might have corrupted. marie zymbotica : ITS NOT CORRUPTED marie zymbotica : these disks are disks that work in outher cddrives an even dvd players marie zymbotica : it said x3 wqas unburned an unformatted well lookie lookie x3 had worked JUST fine in the dvd playier it said that of a cd i need fer one of my classes a cde that worked JUST fine in the school computers itts said spore an its ep even i think was unburned an unformatted i installed spore FROM cmd marie zymbotica : --oh installing spore was erasy LOL e: enter autorun.exe enter c: enter repeat but why bother with that when i can CLICK everything Abdullah : May I know what the word Spore is? marie zymbotica : its called a VIDEOGAME marie zymbotica : this ir one FOR the computer marie zymbotica : --oh AND this cddrive was replaced cause it was showing EVERYTHIONG as unburned unformatted tested right away it worked one week later tested the cd fer my cklass an unburned an unformatted Abdullah : Marrie, as after replacing the Optical drive and the issue is still persists, in this case I recommend you to again replace the Optical drive. Before that I need to check the warranty status for your Notebook to arrange a free mail in repair service. Abdullah : To check the warranty I need the Serial and Product Number of the Notebook. marie zymbotica : the drive WAS replaced the issue lies somewhere in the gui marie zymbotica : and its still under warranty i tested the drive i KNOW its the gui cause cmd shows theres stuff there soo then logic sais MUST be the gui as they look at the SAME
marie zymbotica : you dont care an i need ta help myt mom im outta here if you decide to help you have my e-mail address --theres the full log i might add LOTS of pauses between what that one said prolly translating to idiot fer themselves as we all know i fail at idiot |
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